No one was waiting for me.
The realization hit like a punch to the gut as I stood outside that cheap motel, the world spinning around me. I was free, yes, but it felt more like being cast out. Released into a world that had no place for me, with nothing but the clothes on my back and a few crumpled bills in my pocket from seven years ago.
The streets were alive, bustling with people who moved like they had somewhere to be, someone waiting for them. I was just a shadow, drifting between them, unseen, forgotten. Seven years had passed, and everything was different. The city felt cold, its towering buildings looming over me like predators ready to pounce. I had spent years imagining what freedom would feel like, but this… this wasn’t it.
I wandered aimlessly, my feet carrying me through unfamiliar alleys, past faces that didn’t care. The sun was setting, casting long shadows across the pavement, and as darkness crept in, so did the panic. Where was I supposed to go?
My old village? The thought of returning there sent a shiver down my spine. No. I couldn’t go back. They’d never look at me the same. I was marked—not just by the tattoo that still burned on my neck, but by my crime, my past. Even if they didn’t know the details, they would feel it. The stain of guilt and shame clung to me like a second skin.
I checked into the dingy motel with the last of my money, the receptionist barely glancing at me as I handed over the key. The room was small and suffocating, the walls yellowed with age, the air thick with the smell of cigarettes and sweat. I sat on the edge of the bed, my hands trembling as I tried to calm the storm inside me.
But how could I?
I had no education, no skills. What could I possibly do? Work as a waitress? Clean someone’s house? The thought was laughable. I was nothing. I had nothing. Even my hope had been stripped away, layer by painful layer, until all that remained was the hollow shell of a woman who had once dreamed of a better life.
Days passed in a blur of hunger and desperation. I tried to find work, but every door I knocked on slammed in my face. People took one look at me—at the tattoo, the way I carried myself, the haunted look in my eyes—and dismissed me without a second thought.
“We don’t need anyone,” they’d say, their eyes narrowing as they glanced at the ink on my neck.
I was a ghost, wandering through a world that didn’t want me.
The money I had saved ran out quickly. Too quickly. Soon, I couldn’t even afford the dirty motel room, and I found myself on the streets, curled up in dark corners, shivering through the nights as the cold seeped into my bones. The hunger gnawed at me, a constant, aching reminder of my helplessness.
I watched the world pass me by, a world that I no longer belonged to.
One night, as I sat on the edge of the sidewalk, my stomach twisted in knots, I saw them—women, dressed in tight clothes, their lips painted in bold reds, their eyes lined with darkness. They stood in clusters, laughing, talking, their eyes scanning the street. They were hookers, I knew that much. I had seen them before, in the shadows of the city, trading their bodies for money, for survival.
And I realized, with a sinking feeling, that this was all that was left for me.
No one would hire me. No one cared. But out here, in the darkness, there was work. A different kind of work. One that didn’t require skills or education. Just a body. A body that I had already given away once, to a man who had destroyed me. What was the difference now?
The thought made me sick, but desperation has a way of dulling even the sharpest edges of shame.
I watched them for days, trying to summon the courage to approach, to ask, to admit that this was what my life had come to. The women seemed strong, confident in a way that I had never been. They knew what they were doing, and I—I was lost.
But the hunger was real. The cold was real. And so was the darkness closing in around me. I had no other choice.
One evening, as the sun dipped below the horizon and the streetlights flickered to life, I stood up, my legs shaky but determined. I walked toward them, my heart pounding in my chest, each step heavier than the last.
“Hey,” one of the women called out as I approached, her eyes sharp as she looked me over. “You lost?”
“No,” I said, my voice barely a whisper. “I’m not lost.”
I wasn’t anymore.
Because this was where I belonged now.

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