I dont remember when it started. I just rememeber the empty feeling I always had. The empty feeling that always swallowed me whole, as I never recieved any love from someone. The love I despratley craved never got returned. Due to my Bipolar Personality Disorder, I am able to love someone so much that i would do anything for them. I am able to love someone so hardly that I am forgetting my own feelings. I dont care about myself when I love someone, I despratley crave the validation and love I always give, but this love never got returned. How does it feel when no one ever loved you? Not even your friends, let alone your own family? It hurts. Due my illness I experience emotions harder, which is sometimes a great thing, especially when you feel happiness, which I dont feel often. So when something hurts me emotionally, it feels like a wave is crashing over you and swallows you whole. You dont see any light from benath the surface and feel like your drowning. He was my light, god i wish i was his too.
Love and kisses Derya.
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FanfictionIN WHICH a girl that always gave love but never got it back, not from family, not from friends, not from anyone. Which lead her to feel unlovable. a boy that was always loved and cared about, but to scared to love somebody else. will they try for e...
