Here For You

Chapter 7

June.

The teacher just walked in and the whole class went silent.
Fear is what we want sometimes.

"Good morning, class."

Everyone greeted her back.
She looked at me and smiled.
I know what is going to happen.
I want to cry.

"We have a new student that joined us this year."

She announced and everyone's gaze turned to me.
My neck hair rose.
This is embarrassing.

"Would you like to introduce yourself?

No.
Nope.
Hell no.
Nah.
But in the end, I helplessly nod and got on my feet.
Slowly and shyly, I made my way to the teacher and stood next to her.
I raised my head, everyone is looking at me.
The eyes of many humans are on me, eating me whole leaving me alone with anxiety.
Anxiety, the only living hell, chases everyone even when they try to hide from it, it leaves us questioning everything we did.
Anxiety is the enemy everyone fears, it leaves us sweating, in a dangerous voice it whispers in our ears

"Face the world."

While it knows we don't know how, its one of the many monsters that chases us mentally and avoids chasing us physically because it has a brain and it thinks.
We could heal from physical damages and never from mental ones.
Anxiety avoids strong people, it knows very well not to mess with them because it'll go out of the battle defeated.
Anxiety knows how hard we try, how messy our head is yet we try, again and again and it knows we will fail.
It enjoys seeing us fail, as we are the only way to keep it alive.
By damaging ourselves we give it life for a lifetime, it plays in our minds and builds an entire empire where a very tall towers protect it.
Chasing humans was the best thing Anxiety has done.
It's so smart I envy it.
But I pity myself, being destroyed by a non-existed monster.
The feeling of being helplessly weak, helplessly crying, helplessly seeking everyone's attention.
It's the feeling of being powerless.
Pathetic.
And I know one fact, that I will never be able to fight anxiety.
I just leave it to destroy me.
Little by little until nothing is left but a broken soul.

"June?"

My teacher's voice threw me back to reality.

"Yes, sorry."

I cleared my voice, gathering evey single power I have then I said.

"I am June Davidson, I got here due to a scholarship I received last year, I look forward to get along with y'all."

I bowed, then everyone started to clap, my gaze zeroed on that one boy sitting at the end of the classroom.
His gaze didn't leave me the moment I entered the class.
His eyes are like the lion's, too dangerous yet too beautiful to stare at, his brown silk hair is like bear fur, too soft and warm, his jawline and cheek bones are as sharp as a blade.
His eyes are biting me, eating me, taking a piece of me, big enough to chew and leave no crumbs of it.
I swallowed, like a kitten scared of the big lion back there, a lion that could attack and kill me easily.
A lion that's also too handsome to ignore.

"Thank you so much, Mrs. Davidson."

I nodded in agreement and went back to my seat.
Thank God I am sitting alone, the front seats aren't usually the student's favorite and it isn't mine as well but I just sat here because it was empty.
The class started to make some noises until the teacher clapped, Twice.

"Alright, class."

She stood in the center of the class.

"I am Miss Brooklyn, I am going to teach you Physics."

Oh, looks like I knew who my favorite teacher.
The class was silent, no one commented on anything.

"Today will be a free day, y'all will get your books, every subject. And tomorrow we will start learning."

She announced, everyone looked like they're over the moon by the fact that they are not going to learn anything.
I brought my notebooks just to study nothing.
I held weight on my shoulders for nothing.
I sigh, what am I doing to do all day? Just sit alone staring at the wall?
Or try to make some friends?
No, probably no.
It's a nah.
Every girl here looks arrogant as fuck, rich as fuck.
Something I don't feel.
Somewhere I don't fit.
I regretted changing highschools the moment I stepped in this high school.
I would've preferred to stay with Laura in 'Archer' high school.
At least I knew the teachers there.

Minutes have passed and I am just staring at the wall, talking to myself silently.
I am already bored and sick of this high school.
I would much prefer to sleep.
I can be in my own world then where being weird doesn't exist.
Speaking of weird.
I leaned and took out my manga I was reading yesterday.
It's Tokyo Ghoul's second book.
I read the first one online but found the second in the mall and I couldn't leave without it.
I opened it and started to read, though I already watched the 1st season and started with the 2nd.
It's just so cool.
The anime, the trop, the characters.
Kaneki.
Ahh, all of them got my heart.
I still feel like a hero after mentally surviving the last episode in season one.
It was horribly terrifying, the way they tortured Kaneki was wild.
What do you mean he had to do math to survive.
They literally gave me another reason to hate math.
Besides, I can't see the number 7 and 1000 the same.
Also, the song Consume by Chase Atlantic was inspired by Tokyo Ghoul and it's so far my favorite song.
The line:

Please understand that I am trying my hardest, My head is a mess but I am trying regardless.

Got so much emotion, I felt the line deeply, it affected me.
It's also perfect, the song, the lyrics, the music is amazing.
I flipped the page and was about to start reading when a girl came and interrupted me.
I looked up to meet her eyes.
She is pretty.
She has red hair, long lashes, brown eyes and freckles.
Cute.
Without saying any words, she sat next to me only for a few girls to follow her and surround me.
What the fuck is happing?
My gut is saying something bad will happen.