𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲

𝐂𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐞?

After apologizing, he smiled warmly, i swear every thing about him is comforting, it makes my heart all fuzzy. “I'm Jharles. You?”There's that voice again. Don't panic, It's just a guy, surely not all men are into guys like me. “Ah, I'm Gus.”Yeah, i have a childish name. My parents already saw I'd be childish in the future.“Gus? as in Gus the Gummy Dinosaur?”He was about to laugh, but became hesitant. “Wanna eat something? I'm cookign someth-”He smells something funky and immediately rushes to the kitchen, lots of things happened...? And after a while we just went out, i just wore a very oversized jacket of his and called it good enough to go out. We walked around, talking about things we do for a living, in which, i haven't really decided on a job id stay forever. I'm just working an office job around my area so that i could pay my bills altogether, i like my simple life. But him, oh, he had on rollercoaster ride before he came around here. He used to work for his family's business, but after handing it to his brother, he decided to loosen up a bit and explore since he could afford it. We talked, and talked, and talked, and he brought me home with my stuff, he said he'd give back my clothes tommorow and that i could keep his clothes since he had too much. Huh. Odd but okay. As i finally opened my apartment, i looked around, just the way i like it. I went directly to my room, threw on my PJs, and washed my old clothes, since, they were mine now. But i couldn't get to wash the jacket, it's unique, comforting feeling reminds me of the first time i heard his voice, his soft, calm, deeply eager voice. Then as i snuggled in the looseness of the jacket, it reminded me of his soft chuckle, god, am i seriously in love? Calm down, Gus. You just met him, obviously he's overly nice. You'll probably never stumble in him again. I mean, not my accident, of course.

The very next day, i went to work. And the boss called me to the main office, ooh, a promotion, perhaps? A surprise since i was so confident with work? since I'm so overly nice?

But as soon as i went in, there he was.
The same, Messy-haired, soft-voiced, man i somehow stumbled to again. Emotions filled me up, it was a whole bundle of emotions, joy, embarrassment, a emotion i can't detect but let's just call it delusional, because i was already fantasizing the things we could talk about. Annoying paperwork, colleagues, things we like about breaks, and so much more. We could even walk home and walk to work together, just imagine!

“Gus, he shall be your new partner in the paperworks, since he's new, you can teach him about what to do since it's his first day.”I obviously smiled, but not so much. I shook his hand. “Welcome, Jharles!”I guess i shook his hand too much, because he chuckled, “Thanks, Gus.”We walked to my desk, and the desk beside me would be his desk! who knew luck was on my side today?  I explained the basics, people was giving me weird looks instead of proud looks. Aren't they happy? I finally got someone to help me and it's going to be the dude i wanted to see for so long! We talked during breaks, laughed together, who knew it'd be this exciting?

Chapter 3: Overly sensitive?

Months have passed, it's almost Christmas. The most overly-crowded day of the year. I didn't like loud crowds. I prefered to stay away from exaggerated events, i don't know why, but it makes me hurl in a way. Anyways, Christmas Bonus Salary arrived! and work was called off since, you know, Christmas.

I'm so glad I'll be able to spend Christmas however i like! especially with Jharles, because we made a whole plan on the month of Christmas, he says it's not overly crowded on some days so i think he's got it all planned. The first day of the month, we go out to look at some decorations for the house. There was alot of people there but not so much that it makes me have a panic attack. We even got matching keychains for eachother, he got the Christmas bear, i got the Panda. He says the panda's black circles in it's eyes reminds him of my glasses, which, doesn't sound so bad.
He asked me a very odd question, “Why do you hate crowds?”Even i don't know why, why i act so childish, why i overshare, why i overly express my feelings to things i love, why I'm like this. I stay silent, isn't that why i went to the doctor, which led to our meeting?

I don't wanna know why, my parents always said i was unique to them, since i was always so readable. I still am, because when i was down in the dumps, he offered to buy me some hot chocolate, he had a voucher which will expire on Christmas day, and he used it just to get me a free choco-bomb to put with my hot chocolate, he's the nicest person I've ever met, other than my parents. Now that i think about it, everyone always gives me weird stares, never knew why, but i guess i just ignored it because i was always busy with my myself, now that I'm with Jharles, i start noticing everyone whispering behind my back, and i feel a gut-wrenching feeling. I always avoided crowds. Everytime i was in one, i would run away almost immediately.

Maybe i am weird, like a clown amongst a group of civilized people, or an annoying child around a group of adults. I don't know anymore, but I'm glad to be with Jharles, he makes me so....Unique. Like the word my parents would use, "Unique". I felt the word " Unique" when we'd walk somewhere in public, i felt like royalty with Jharles.

Maybe....I do like him, and maybe he likes me? I don't know, i don't wanna ask, everytime i do, i feel like I'm bothering him.