Mattheo Riddle + Y/n Nott

Chapter 4

⚠️TW!⚠️ Eating disorder & SH⚠️

you pull on a sweatshirt, you've always hated the way your body looked since you where little and your mom used to call you fat. You got used to being hungery all the time, skipping meals and casting spells. Nothing you did ever made you hate yourself any less. You step onto the scale and look at the number, slightly lower than yesterdays "Y/N!!" Pansy bangs on the door of the bathroom "I need to do my makeup!!" she yells "I'll be out in a second!" you snark back, stepping off the scale and pulling on your skirt. You glance back one more time in the mirror before leaving the bathroom "about time" Pansy grumbles stepping into the bathroom and pulling the door closed "lock" you whisper at the door and it clicks "thats for dumping draco" you whisper grabbing your books 

"are you going to astrology?" Mattheo asks "yeah, you too?" I respond "yep" he says "do you feel better?" you nod "yeah I think the drugs are totally out of my system" you assure him "good, I'm gonna kill Cedric" you grab his hand "you'll get expelled, I'm not letting him take anything else from me" he sighs and squeezes your hand "If he does anything else" Matthoe warns "you can kill him then" you laugh, you liked seeing this side of Mattheo. "sit with me?" he asks "of course" 

you head to the lunch room with the rest of the slytherians "I haven't seen Pansy all day" Draco observes "I locked her in our bathroom" you tell him "WHAT?" he exclaims incredously "Yeah she deserved it tho, i'll let her out before dinner" you assure him "I'm gonna get her" He stands up "sit down, she dumped you" Enzo says "I can't let her stay in that bathroom though!" he exclaims "shes probably dying" he whines "shes fine, we have food in our bathroom" I snicker "plus if you go to the girls dorms you could very well go to dentention" I add, Draco grumbles out something incohernt and goes back to stuffing his mouth with mashed potatoe "easy Draco, the food isn't going anywhere" Theo laughs "I'm gonna stab you" Draco threatens annoyed "go ahead and try" Theo dares "both of you stop it" Enzo snaps, 

Mattheo nudges me "are you gonna eat?" he asks "I ate at the dorm" I lie "are you sure?" he checks "yeah I'm good" you confirm, you tug at your sweatshirt. Mattheo grabs your hand "You are really pretty, you know that?" you smile "I love you" you whisper "I-" he hesitates before taking his hand away from yours and standing up "I'm gonna head back to the dorm," he addresses everyone "will you be at the party?" Draco asks "sure" he mumbles before walking out. You take a shaky breath and stand up "I'm going to astromy, I'll see you guys later" I wave and rush out of the room.

you lock the door to your dorm and slide down the wall, "so so so stupid" you mutter "why would you say that?!" You chest gets tight and you start wheezing "s-so s-stupid" you choke. You start to panick, you lean over and pull out a blade from your bag. 

You go to the bathroom and clean your arms with anseptic and bandage it "shit shit shit" the blood quickly seeps through the bandage, You put a new bandage on when you hear a knock at the door "Lila?" shit shit shit "one second!" you put on a sweatshirt and throw the bloody rags underneath the sink, "Y/n please" Mattheo says "One minute!" You shout walking to the door and unlocking it "what do you want" you ask dryly "I'm sorry" he says "I love you" he kisses you "I love you too" you reply.

Mattheo pulls you onto your bed, he pulls his shirt off and tries to take off yours, you pull away "are you okay?" he asks "y-yeah, I just have a class" You lie standing up "oh okay" Mattheo pulls his shirt back on "see you" you say akwardly closing the door and sighing, what would he think of you if he knew.