Lost & Found Hearts- GeminiFourth au

Tear me to pieces, skin to bone

3rd Person's POV

            It's been two months now that Fourth was hiding in Pond's apartment from his parents, Pond already told his parents that Fourth is in Thailand but he won't tell them the whole story cause he want Fourth to be the one to tell them. Fourth's condition was worsening as he would have panic attacks, insomnia and also stopped eating. Boom and Namtan spent most of their time with Fourth as Pond had to work. Pond was also suffering with him, he would cry alone, he started smoking and became over protective of Fourth.

"Fourth! Please eat or you're gonna be sick!", Namtan said while holding a spoon in front of Fourth's mouth.

"Phi I don't feel like eating, I feel nauseous, please....", Fourth said with no emotions.

"You're going for therapy cause I can't see you like this Fourth! I know something terrible happened to you and If I can go back and do something I would never let anyone lay finger on you, but I cannot! so this can't go for long, you have a long life to live, you have to get through this, so at least try for Phi na, my heart can't take this torture Fourth!", Pond said softly while weeping.

"P'Pond.... I don't wanna live a long life.", Fourth said while tears brimming in his eyes.

"Okay, then let's go die together, okay! Is that what you want? Come let's go Boom, Namtan let's go die cause that what we will have to do anyways right? if he's not alive!!", Pond lost control on his emotions causing Fourth to cry loudly.

"Okay... I'll go to the therapy, I'll do whatever you want but please don't leave me na!", Fourth finally gave in.

"Hey... we are never gonna leave you, no matter how much you push us away, we're siblings so we're supposed to be together!"

      Boom said while hugging Fourth and this was the first time after the incident that Fourth smiled, his siblings missed that smile so much that they started cheering causing Fourth to giggle.

      Fourth took several sessions with the therapist and right now he was sitting telling him what's on his mind.

"I feel insecure, i feel worthless now, everyone sympathizes me, everyone pity me, its not my fault what happened but I don't want to be a victim anymore, I wanna be a person!", Fourth cried out.

"Do you know, you can't stop people from saying what they want because they have the right to say anything as they own their mouths, so you should be the one that should be blamed for accepting what they say, they have the right to say anything but you have the right to not own it, once you own what they say it means that you're giving your consent.... it depends how you perceive that message, Fourth! You're not a victim if you overcome the trauma you've gone through, you said it's not your fault then why are you punishing yourself? Why are you believing in what people thinks? I know you're strong and one day you're gonna sit there not as a patient, or a victim but as a warrior! Come back whenever you brain is clouded, I'll try and find the answers to your questions!", Therapist lectured Fourth and Fourth started to come out of his shell.

        In a year, Fourth almost was back to his real self, he was still not trusting everyone, he would still flinch at sounds, he would still have panic attacks but rarely. He was now back to being the bubbly kid, he would play and joke around with his siblings, he told his parents everything and he moved in with them, everyday Fourth's parents would check on him from time to time like you do to a one year old, you're scared that he would cry alone, you're scared that he'll fall of the crib, you're scared that he'll disappear. 

        His mother would cry a lot when taking Fourth to therapy, his father would take him everywhere he wanted. Pond would not let him go anywhere without surveillance, Boom and Namtan became his best friends as he was always at home, he took two years gap and now it's finally time for him to go to college, even after missing two year, he was in the right grade of college as per the Thai schooling system according to his age. (Idk Thai schooling system either, just assume that eighteen is the age to start college.)

Fourth's POV

       Life seems to be alright, I gave a second chance to myself and I'm not regretting it, I didn't deserve what happened to me, my family love me a lot so how can I let them get hurt. I'm eighteen right now and I'm finally going to college and I'm happy. I hope I'll make friends and I hope I can trust people and won't get scared on every little thing.

      Yesterday I went with P'Boom to get my uniform, bag, and more college supplies, and today it's my first day of college and P'Pond is gonna drive me there, he's too over protective now and I can't blame him.

"Fourth! Let's go or you're gonna be late for the orientation!", I heard P'Pond calling me from his car.

"Coming!!!....hey sorry I just took my toast, let's go!", we drove to college while talking about small stuff he was telling me about Thailand. I still don't know every word yet.

        We were born in Korea, our father is Thai but he settled his business in Korea when he was young and then he fell in love with our mother so even though our names were Thai and we are half Thai, I never visited Thailand before I was sixteen. I started learning Thai a year ago but I'm still kinda weak.

        We reached the college and P'Pond started lecturing me again.

"Fourth you try to make good friends na!, like you okay! And don't go alone with someone and don't let anyone bully you, call me or Boom he's gonna be here for his class in an hour or so, Namtan has no class today, okay! And you have to come back with Boom on time, you don't go wander around with him without letting me know, got it?", P'Pond kept talking.

"Okay Phi, I will do all the things you said cause this is the third time you're repeating now! I'll just go and I'll update you about my day okay!? I love you bye.", I gave him a kiss on his forehead and ran.

"Love you too! Be safe na!!"

       He screamed and I gave him a thumbs up. P'Boom and P'Namtan are in their final year now as they are five years older than me. P'Boom is in Architecture major and P'Namtan is in Design major, and I am in Medicine! I want to be a doctor.

       After the orientation we have to sign up for at least one club, I made a friend here and his name is Satang. He's cute and funny but also has a very good fashion sense. I use to play soccer back in Korea but I don't wanna be in the soccer club, I'm not comfortable with it anymore. So for me Music club is the only option, it has less risk for triggering my mental health, I can play couple of instruments and I use to sing a lot for my family, they love my voice. After calling P'Pond to ask him which club to join I went to Music club for getting the forms.