Only You

Lost Puppy

Florence's POV

The journey had finally ended, I was almost sad that it had though, Leah had put so much effort into making the trip into something enjoyable and exciting for the both of us, and the memories created on it will definitely last. However now we're in Germany at Adidas Headquarters where we'll get to use some of the highest quality sporting equipment, pitches, and the entirety of the camp - I'm absolutely buzzing and can't wait to learn more about all the girls, there already some of the loveliest people I've ever met and I don't even properly know them.

I told Leah I'd grab our items from the bus while she gets our suitcases from underneath it, now she's talking to Wally. As I'm walking over I notice they're speaking in hushed tones, trying to keep their conversation quiet, but as I've already made my way closer I catch a part of their conversation, Leah's words to be exact...

"She's like a lost puppy, doesn't know what to do with herself."

I feel the colour physically drain from my face and my stomach beginning to churn and tighten as I feel genuinely sick. Is that how she really feels, like I'm some puppy desperate for her attention and following her around. This always happens. That's why I don't let people in easily. Only really Lessi and Beth... and Leah. But that was clearly a mistake in her eyes. She sounds like she wants nothing to do with me, and if that's what she wants I'll let her have it.

I make my way over to Leah and Wally, suddenly feeling beyond anxious, desperate to just be home and curled up in a ball under my duvet, for some reason I even feel like I want my mum right now. But I shake off the feeling, plucking the courage to speak.

"Here's your stuff Le- Leah" I spoke, trying my best to keep any emotions concealed, my tone coming off as monotone and dull. "And can I have my suitcase" I added.

The blondes face immediately shifted to an expression of concern. Like she cares. And Wally stood beside her looked between us both clearly aware of the tension I'd brought over.

"Are you ok Love?" Leah questioned

I laughed rather dryly. I knew I was being pathetic, I didn't have to be so petty. But growing up in the conditions I did, being completely unloved and dismissed by the person who should've cared and love me more than anybody kind of deteriorates reasonable decision making in these situations. I'd shut off and I knew it... and right now I didn't even care. I think I actually somehow flicked a switch inside of me to turn off my heart as some kind of coping mechanism.

"I'm fine. Can I please just have my bag Leah"

The blondes face immediately reluctantly handed over my belongings, and I turned away in silence walking off towards Alessia and Lotte, but I could feel the blondes eyes burning a hole through me as she refused to look away from me.

Leah's POV- A few minutes earlier

Flo was still on the bus, collecting whatever we'd left there as I went with Wally to get our suitcases.

"How's Keira doing" Wally asked, Keira had recently been going through a bit of a rough patch with Lucy, they'd moved to Barcelona together and now that things are going wrong she's feeling a bit out of place.

"She's alright, well she's getting there... I think she's been so reliant on Lucy since they got there, I mean the language is tough, and now spending hardly anytime with Luce anymore she said she's like a lost puppy... doesn't know what to do with herself" I spoke quietly, not wanting the whole team to know what's private between Keira and Lucy.

Before I could continue, Florence appeared in front of me and that warm feeling filled my chest - genuine content and happiness. But that shifted when I noticed her demeanour, laced with discomfort and upset. She was physically pale, like she wasn't well but her hard expression made her look quite frustrated.