blood || hyunchan

Three.

(guys what am i doing wrong why did half of my readers drop this. i MIGHT just have to reupload this book)

∘₊✧──────✧₊∘  (hyunjin's pov, tw' sexual assualt ideatio and panic attacks, please dont read if uncomfortable)

As a rough hand yanked my hair, a sharp pain rippled in my head. "Stop it! Please! I don't want to!" I cried out as the other man simply smiled in a sickeningly sweet manner-- far from what he was doing to me.

"C'mon, baby. . If you truly loved me you would let me have you."

"Wh-What?! If you loved me you would leave me alone!" I yelled out desperately.

His eyes darkened before forcefully and harshly kissing me.

I desperately tried pulling back, pushing him away, but it was futile. My body was weak from the pain of his abuse.

"Stop fighting back, it's easier to just stay still and let it happen, yeah?"

"Stop it! Please!"

He only just smirked, "You know how much I love when you beg, baby."

☆彡彡☆ミミ☆

(felix's pov)

I stepped into the room Hyunjin was staying in to check on him. I don't know why, but I found myself getting a bit concerned about him.

His behavior last night was. . interesting to say the least. He looked almost terrified.

As I stepped in the room, I was met with the sight of Hyunjin, who was in a cold sweat and whimpering in his sleep.

Was he having a nightmare?

I walked over slowly to him and reluctantly shook his shoulder, trying to wake him up.

After a few light shakes, he still doesn't wake. I sigh and shake him a little harder, "Hey, wake up."

Hyunjin's eyes abruptly shoot open and he quickly sits up and yanks my hand away. His bangs are sticking to his forehead from sweat.

"Hey, hey. Calm down, I'm not gonna do anything."

My words seem to have not reached him as his breathing became more and more laboured. It was clear he was starting to have a panic attack.

"Hyunjin, can you take slow, deep breaths for me? C'mon, follow my breathing"

I start taking deep breaths, "In and out, just like that."

As Hyunjin starts calming down, I still dont dare to move a step foward.

"Can you tell me what's wrong? What made you wake up like that."

"No-Nothing! Leave me alone!" The shaken boy sitting on the bed breathlessly yelled out.

I nodded my head and began slowly making my way to the door, trying to make my actions as reassuring as possible.

As I step out the room and close the door behind me, I can't help but think,

What the hell was that?

Like, I know not everyone has a completely blissful life, but waking up and immediately having a panic attack? I'm worried.

Should I tell the members? Nah, it's not my place to tell them. But I am worried. But I'll also, probably, maybe ruin his chance on trusting me. I want people to trust me. Oh snap, what do I do?? I love the members and always tell them things, but I don't want to break my only chance on a new friendship. What?! Ah!! I'm just not gonna tell them, they'll understand. Hopefully. .

∘₊✧──────✧₊∘

(sorry!! im having extreme writers block right now, so heres a short chapter for now)