Finding light in the Darkness

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Christa POV:

I woke up to a note beside me.

    Im at work. Feel free to make yourself at home. I dont care what you do just dont snoop around my house

It was written in messy handwriting. I got up and went into the bathroom to shower.

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After the shower I smelt like Ymir since I used her shampoo and body wash. I went to her closet to find some clothes. I found a pair of light-washed jeans and a grey sweatshirt. the clothes were still too big for me but I made it work.

I didnt have work today so I guess Ill just hang out here for the day I guess.

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Ymir POV:

Just after 5 o'clock I finished work. I drove home to see none other than Christa.

"Your still here?" I said confused. Christa smiled.

"Your back!" She got up and hugged me. I lightly pushed her away.

"Im confused." I stated.

"Well you did say in the note that I could make myself at home." Christa picked up the note and showed me.

"Well I know that but I didnt mean like you stay the whole day!" I said frustrated. Christa looked sad. I sighed.

"Look... Im sorry. Its just all been weird. First your calling me a jerk and punching me and now your at my house and you hugged me" I bluntly said. Christa looked down.

"Ill go if you want" She said.

"Thats not what I mean. Im sorry fi that sounded rude. I....enjoy your company" I admitted. Christas face lit up.

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"Hey christa, Im just gonna be outside for a moment" I told her as I went onto the front porch.

I leand against a post and rolled a blunt of marujauna. I lit the blunt and slowly took a few puffs.

After a few moments I heard the door open. Christa came beside me. Her face was complexed.

"Ymir Smoking is bad!" She said trying to take the blunt. I held it out of her reach.

"Its just weed." I said. Her face was confused.

"Thats still no good for you Ymir!" She said.

"Its for medical reasons. It just helps with my anxiety!" I yelled. That wasnt true at all. It wasnt for medical reasons. I get it from a dealer. It makes me calmer so I dont lash out. I may be addicted to it but its fine.

"Oh... im sorry" Christa said. Im glad she beleived what I said.

"where do you keep your stash" She asked me. I froze.

"That doesnt matter!"I said loudly. Christa looked slightly frightend.

"Im sorry......I didnt mean to yell" I said looking away. Christa just walked back inside.

I took a few mor puffs but I wasnt calming down. I walked back inside. I walked into my bedroom and took a shoe box out from my closet.

I opend it up.

"fuck" I was out of molly. All that was their was weed and empty bottls without any molly in them. I had some left over crack but I cant use that while Christa is here. I guess ill just need to be as relaxed as possible until I get some more.

I walked back out to the kitchen. Christa was making something.

"Do you mind if I head out. I wont be long." I asked.

"Okay. The food will be ready when you get back?" She smiled. I just nodded and left.

I pulled out my phone as I walked down the street. I pulled out my phone.

{Dealer}

me-same spot?

dealer-you know it

dealer- want the usual?

me-yes. Ill be their soon.

I put my phone in my pocket and walked to the spot.

I eventually made it to the ally. Zeke was leabing against the wall with his hood up.

"Hey kiddo" He said smoking a cigarette.

"I need two bottles" I said straighforword. Zeke searched his bag and pulled out two bottles.

"Anything else?Edibles?"He asked.

"Why not" I said as he got out a pack of edible.

"Prices have raised. for all...$2k" Zeke smirked.

"You dirty bastard. I got $300. Ill pay the rest eventually" I said handing him the money as he gave me the drugs.

"Your in my debt now. if you dont pay it off.... bad things will happen" He laughed. I just put the stuff in my pockets and went home. I took a few pills of molly on the way. My brain drifted elswhere. i finally felt calm.

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I made it home finally. Christa was sitting at the table waiting for me. I sat down. We each had a bowl of ramen.

I slowly took a few bites.

"This is really good" I said with food in my mouth. Christa chuckled.

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soon we both finished.

"So where did you go?" Christa asked me.

"It doesnt matter" I said rudly.

"Why are you so secretive?" She asked getting anoyyed.

"I dont need to tell you about every single detail of my life!" I shouted. Christa was quiet. She looked as if she was about to cry. I fucked up.

"Im sorry..." I calmed down. Crista got up.

"Im done with your 'sorries'." She walked towards the door. I stood up and walked to her. I put my hand on her shoulder. She swatted it away.

"Dont touch me" She said coldly. I watched as she left. I turned around and went to my room. I hid my bottles of molly and took two edibles then hid them.

It took about twenty minutes until they finally hit me. It was like all my problems got pushed away. I always felt happy like this.

But then a thought came back to my head. I actually considerd christa as my friend. but I fucked that up. I cant even keep a simple friendship.

The rest of that night sucked. The one thought turned a happy high into a depressing one.