THE BETTER ONE

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Off's P.O.V

It felt like a dream...

I was just sitting here on the floor, staring at Gun's lifeless body on the morgue...

He was covered in a white long sheet...

Everyone left crying on the hospital while I stayed...

I want to cry but I couldn't...

I don't know why and probably I can't figure out the best reason I can answer...

My mouth was shut, eyes started forming another tears to drop and just sit still...

I suddenly remembered what he said on our first date...

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'Off...' Gun called.

'Huh? Hmm?' Off.

'If I die, look after them for me...' Gun said, not looking at him.

'Why are you talking like that?' Off confusedly asked him.

'It's not impossible for me to die early. My life is already at risk and yet I'm here because I know how to fight for my life...' Gun.

'And you're right...' Gun.

'I'm wrong for pushing people away from me, I'm sorry...' Gun said as he stopped walking and looked directly at Off.

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Those pity eyes were enough for me to know how you really meant it...

But how can I do that Gun? How can I do that when I can't also live without you?

I should have told you what I wanted to say that night...

I closed my eyes as tears fell down on my cheeks. I made a scenario where I was in that night again with Gun...

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"Gun..." I called him.

"Oh?" Gun.

"What if I tell you I can't do what you wanted me to do?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" Gun.

"Gun... I can't live without you..." I said and started sobbing.

"I died, isn't?" Gun asked me. I just cried, not answering his question...

"I guess I died..." Gun said and gave me a warm smile...

I keep crying, I didn't have the urge to even look at him even in my own dreams...

"Why are you crying?" Gun asked me. I just covered my mouth and cried harder...

I couldn't speak. My mouth was shut and I'm not fine...

Suddenly his hand held mine and the other hand wiped my tears off...

"I'm asking you..." Gun said, looking at me.

I slowly looked at him as I pressed my cheek more in his hand where he wiped my tears...

I didn't speak as I nodded in his question, I started sobbing again and this time, I hugged him tight...

None of us had the urge to speak again, Gun just hugged me back which made me cry even more...

'Off...'

That voice...

'Off!!!'

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I woke up, still crying as I saw Tay in front of me...