In a perfect world
You're understanding,
I'm not a perfect girl...
I would drop my fears at the door
I would only bring myself and nothing more
And you let me be, a woman
And you let me be, a flawed woman
You would yearn to hear all about my past
...
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It had been weeks since Sienna and Dayvon were broken up. Devastated was an understatement and she already had broke the no contact rule endless of times but wasn't able to get through to him.
Sienna laid in her sister's bed while she stroked her hair and listened to her silent cries. Samaria wished she would've let her knock the girl head off her shoulders but instead she let her go free hoping to run into her later.
"Von been ignoring me for days Mari." Sienna complained after trying to call Dayvon's phone for the fifth time in a two minute span.
"Why are you calling him anyway? He was the one that fucked up. He should be calling you." Mari explained. "Gimmie that phone." She snatched the phone out of baby sister's hand and threw it behind her.
"Have Durk heard from him?" Sienna was desperate to know the well-being of her ex boyfriend who she didn't want to be an ex anymore. She figured he would've came knocking down Samaria's doors to make things right, but he had yet to do so.
Sienna began to think that maybe his love for her wasn't as real as he made it seem.
"Of course he heard from him that's his brother SiSi. I didn't even bother talking to Durk about Von because I don't give a fuck what he doing and you shouldn't either." Mari explained making sure to wipe the excess tears that rolled down her cheek.
"I need to tell him that I'm carrying his child. He has the right to know." Sienna was trying to find any and every reason to talk to him. She didn't have enough energy to physically go to their shared home and beg for him back.
"Girl please, you wasn't going to tell him shit. Leave that nigga where he is and move on. Trying to trap him with a baby is not gon make him act right by you. Grandma Ocean told us this over and over and look at you. You're going against literally everything she taught us Sienna."
She began to cry harder realizing that all her morals, values and self worth had went completely out the window. "How did we even get here? I thought he loved me."
"He can love you and still do dumb shit. Men aren't the brightest when it comes to women and considering their feelings. What do you think he would've done if you didn't hear him and that bitch conversation?" She asked trying to make sense as to why Dayvon was the hoe she always claimed him to be since they met.
Sienna laid there in silence already knowing the answer but was too ashamed to say it. Samaria always told her that whenever a man gave her the cold shoulder all of a sudden, it was because he had someone else.
"I need my phone." She told her sister who was still refusing to let her use her phone.
"Girl no. We need to get dressed so we can go out and find you another nigga. If that clown wanna ignore you, we gon show his ass who really run the circus." Trying to cheer her up was always a struggle but Mari was going to be sure to get her out of this funk if that was the last thing she did.
