Well, before this all continues.
Those chapters before as you know, belongs to Superioroveryouall (go check out their story before obv<333)
So, lets begin
(first of all, please comment what tw's to add because I never remember,
But my work is not for the weak y'all<333)
*tw's (that i know of)
mentions of sh, RAGE. ,
Y/n talking is in bold because shes an icon 👯
"urghghh..." I grumble,
FUCK!'
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I cant believe he did that, not only did he castrate my chances with Conner but he's just a fucking, PIG. for that.
He didn't even ask, and he did all that, for what? To save his ass.
Well he can fucking eat it for all I care,
I stand up and ransack my closet for some adequate running clothes,
I cant go back there over some guy,
If I'm going to do something to myself, it might as well be positive.
Back when I was in a worse place, the burnout got to me.
I wasn't getting A's and self hatred got the best of me,
I felt like nothing.
My only tool for coping was a blade to my flesh,
But now, I know there's more to everything,
ive been clean for 2 months, almost relapsed so fucking often. but one look at the lifelong scars reminded me i can do it.
i can get through it.
i tie my hair up, adding bobby pins and what not,
I wear a simple tank top and leggings,
Im not scared of showing these scars, they're proof I got through everything.
Im about to step outside fueled soely with motivation to exercise. But its beyond freezing,
I chuck on a hoodie and grab my over ear headphones instead of my airpods,
I plan a route that leads all the way back to my house and connect the headphones to my phone, I'm fucking ready,
I Press play and head off,
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I've been running for 30 minutes and I take an break at a random park, I've got about 15 minutes till I'm back but I might head in the other direction for a bit of a challenge.
Its almost 11pm now but my mum hasn't called once.
Sweet.
Im about to stand up and head back off but I hear my name being called,
"fuck, am i hallucinating AGAIN.?!"
I turn around to see dee and his erm... brother???
(we don't judge y/n. we don't judge)
"what the fuck do you want dee?
We.
Are done."
I sneer at him,
He flinches back in surprise, almost hurt.
"y-yea but, uhm, Listen. Im sorry, okay?"
"sorry doesent fix jack shit dee, we solved everything in the principals office and it ended there. OKAY?"
"yeah, but maybe it shouldn't have...?
I'm sorry for blaming you over everything and I shouldn't have, but I just cant handle having that on record..."
"and you think I can?"
" I got suspended.
For 2 weeks.
Two fucking weeks.
by now ive given up on oversharing, get fucked, its life. i hope he learns someday that lifes not all sunshines and rainbows. its fucking shit, get emoted on loser
Hey, you want to know some real shit, my mum fucking shoved me into the car on the drive home, except we didn't go home.
We went to the emergency room where I was forced to do an evaluation then had to do ANOTHER fucking 72 hour hold, in ica no less.
That's fucking traumatizing, dee."
"...
Holy shit, uhm...
y/n..."
"i dont want to hear it dee."
im seething in rage
" but im really sorry!'
"you'll never be sorry enough will you?"
I tighten my hair and head off, putting my music up even higher using an volume boosting app,
I don't want to hear from him again,
Ill have to see him soon anyays, only 1 and a half more weeks left...
Fuck it.
Ive relapsed for worse reasons,
I can go back to square one cant i, relapsing is apart of the healing process
(IT REALLY FUCKIGN IS GUYS, YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT I PROMISE YOU<333333)
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•LET'S ROCK• Dee S. x Reader (original by superioroveryouall )
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