Sober

Chapter 9

Sighing lightly as I shut the door once I had entered, I couldn't stop rethinking everything.

I really thought that going to Jackson's party would be the greatest break I need from the extensive work load I had to catch up on but after minho's words I don't know if I want to go anymore.

I mean my head is practically exploding with the thought of going but my chest feels a pang of guilt.

Do I go and break everyone's trust without them even knowing?

Or....

Do I stay and still possibly break everyone's trust without them knowing?

Both options have the same downside of it.

Maybe I should just flip a coin and let it decide whether I should go or not.

I rummage through bag pretty sure I have some loose change laying around somewhere.

Picking up the silver coin I stare at it for a while before flipping it up into the air.

Heads for going.

Tails for staying.

Once I had caught the coin and flipped it over landing flat onto the back of my palm, I took a breath contemplating on whether to go along with whatever face it lands on.

"What are you doing?" The younger questioned appearing out of nowhere causing a slight jump from me.

"You startled me." I say in shock as he lightly chuckles.

"Well I apologize for that but what are you hiding underneath your palm?"

"Well I can't make a decision on a choice to make so I flipped a coin to decide what I'd do."

"Uh that makes sense."

"Yeah but I do have a question for you."

"Okay." He says as he takes a seat on the bar stool.

"Well have you thought about your decision." I ask still having the coin placed hidden underneath my palm.

"Well yes but before that we need to agree on a of set rules." He says as I nod.

"I'll allow you to go but you'll be back around midnight, no later then that and if your an hour late or more I'm calling Minho hyung." He says sternly as I nod once again.

"Anything else?"

"You are not allowed to consume any substances that could be bad for you,besides alcohol. If you take anything resulting in you being high I'll have no choice but to call the school's governing body and you will be sent back to rehab."

"Okay that's something I can deal with but can I at least smoke a puff of weed."

"I can't allow that-"

"It'll just be a puff and nothing more I promise." I say pleading as the younger sighs before nodding.

"Just a puff and nothing more and only this once and you'll be attending ur Youth program next week agreed."

Gosh the reminder of that stupid program annoys.

It's not like it'll magically make my addiction dissappear but if it'll make lix agree then I'll just go.

"Fine I'll go attend next weeks session." I say with a sigh.

"Well now that's sorted what's lucky face it had landed on."

"Oh yeah that." I say completely forgetting about the coin.

Removing my palm from the shielded coin as the decision has been made.

"Funny, it's heads." I snicker.

"Well what was the decision?" The younger asks curious.

"Nothing serious just whether I should dresw casual for tomorrow, so I'll be doing just that." I say with slight smile.

"Well it is just a party and Jackson's to be exact."

"Yeah, I'd rather not let any of my good clothes get ruined by the smell of sweaty teens and alcohol." I say cringing at the thought.

"Well you'll technically be part of those sweaty teens." he chuckles.

"Yeah no." I say as we both laugh.

Despite the guilt that still lingers in my chest, I have a pretty good feeling about tomorrow.

Maybe I won't entirely break Minho's trust.

Or maybe I'm just telling myself that to feel better.

A.n:

Sorry for the short chapter, kinda got stuck with writers block:/