𝑺𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔 : 𝑨 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆

～⁠♡𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 4♡～

"I'm ready to tell you my past"

I've been waiting for her to share her past with me because I've been stressed about her panic attacks lately. Her panic attack triggers when someone shouts or someone gets hurt with a wound or bruises. It was too much for me to bear to see her crying and screaming for help in her panic attacks. Her crying saying 'please save me from that devil' is something she says every time she gets a panic attack. It makes me crave to know more about her past and what happened to her that she's this scared of yelling or shouting.

After the first panic attack that she got from me, I'm being very careful around her trying to keep her happy as much as I can. But I can see that she is always scared of staying alone at times as I think that it's connected to her past. Her smile makes my heart flutter. The first time when she sat on my lap, was when I started to love her more and make her feel loved. I called her bhabhi some time ago to know more about her and her panic attacks but she would always tell me that 'it would be good if ruhi tells you herself'

"Are you listening to me?" She pulled me back from my thoughts "Yes I'm!" I said in response. As I said to her she started after taking a deep breath "let's sit and then I'll tell you" "Sure" after that I sat on the chair and indicated her to sit on lap so that I can hug her as I find peace while hugging her.

"If you're still not ready, don't worry I'm always here to listen to you" I said to make her comfortable with me "I use to live with my uncle Raj in Delhi 8 years ago. He was very kind and nice to me in the beginning but after his wife divorced him for cheating with her sister, he b-became a monster" she said fumbling i hugged her to make her feel safe and secure. "He used to come home drunk with girls and I was ordered to make food for him because I used to live there for my studies but he wouldn't let me study. And when I would try to avoid him, he would bang the door so hard that it would sometime break and it was me who use to pay for it's repairing.

And if would disobey him, he would beat me with his belt and would throw me in the balcony for the whole night." My hands clenched into a fist listening to her. She handled so much on herself. "Then one night, he was more drunk then usual. I kept his food on the table and ran back to my room in order to safeguard myself. I locked my door and sat on the bed. Before I could process what to do further, he broke in. He came to me grabbed my hand in his grip.

He dragged me in his room and..."  Her silence was saying everything. She gripped on her saree facing her lap, tears flowing down. Pulling her closer to me and embracing her in my arms. "I kept screaming to stop b-but he wouldn't listen to me..after he stopped, he cursed me and my existence. He was blaming me for his wife to leave him. He left me to yearning. After that night, I informed my parents about all this because it was getting too much to bear now. I can't forget that night because that night I failed to protect myself from him." Tears wouldn't stop from her eyes and seeing her in this condition was hurting me deep inside.

"You've beared alot meri jaan...but now I'll keep you like a queen..My queen.. I'll make sure that your enjoying your life as you want. I'll make sure that your happy with me and my family" I said to her because she was girl that don't deserve to get hurt but beared a lot.

I stood up with her in my arms and walked towards our bed, Makinher sit down and said "You can change into something comfy and until then I'll stay outside. Call me when your done and don't dare to let any of that tears to come out of your beautiful eyes..hmm?" I placed a peck on her forehead before leaving the room for her to change.

While she was changing, i thought to make her something to eat. I walked towards the kitchen and wore the Apron and started to make some sandwiches because that's the only thing I know to cook.

Ruhanika came down wearing her nightsuit. She came and sat on the dinning table waiting for me to come. I served her the sandwiches and she started to eat. As she was eating, I was watching her feelings mesmerized by her beauty.

After we were done, i decided to take her out to make her feel better. "Rooh? Kha ho aap?" I called out for her as she said that she is coming in 5 minutes after we completed our dinner.

("Rooh? Where are you?")

"I'm coming!" She shouted from upstairs. After a few minutes she came down. She placed a weak smile on her face. "What happened? You suddenly went away..is everything alright?" I ask her while holding her both arms in my hands gently rubbing one of hand to make her comfortable.

"Nothing I'm okay....you don't have to worry" she said to me but I knew that something Is wrong with her. I picked her in my arms, she was surprised with the sudden action. I walked towards the living room, I made her sit on the sofa and went out for a minute.

As he went out, my thoughts flooded me. He is such a gentleman and a very caring one. I'm so surprised that he didn't react much to my past and was so generous with me after even knowing that I'm impure. I don't deserve such a pure heart, what if he is planning to leave me. I can't just live without him now. He is like my oxygen which helps me to breathe and I want him every time near me.

This time I'm so grateful to have him in my life. And you see how ungrateful my life is that my periods came and I'm too shy to tell him because this was something that was taught to me that it is not supposed to be talking in front of men. I'm out of my pads and I need to restock them but my shyness is two steps ahead of me.

Before i could dig more of my thoughts, Adhiraj came and said "rooh, what happened? Why are you so quiet right now? Tell me... I'm here to resolve your problem" o my god how can he be so kind to me. "I'm on my periods" how did I say that. "Oh my- that's not a thing to hide rooh...if not me then who will ask you"

"Let's go I've a surprise for you" "what surprise?" I asked out of curiosity. "You'll know soon.... let's go" he held my hand and we headed towards the car and he opened the passenger door for me to sit and as I did, he sat in the car and we drove away to somewhere i don't know.

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