Princess trouble

Katrina's backstory

Katerina

Thank god it's over.
We just got back from our, let's call it job.
I was asign to kill someone and that fucker went to 4 different buildngs that he owned.
I had to tell Antony to track him down to know exactly were he is. Antonio is my 24y brother who is my get away with everything and the tracker.
Good for Amelia she didn't have to do anything, she's my sniper and my 23y sister.

"Katrina?! Are we going to celebrate the clean kill?! „
I hear Antony call out after me.
I was on the 5th step at the stairs case when I stopped to answer him.

I looked around to see the guards there and the cook, she is a very loving cook, tho even so, I can't trust her, nor the guards here enough to speak so I just shrug my shoulders.

"Katriinaa?Can we go shopping? Please? „
I hear my sister Amelia call me in a sweet voice.

I turn around and threw my arms up as in, I don't know.
I went upstairs into my room, I then got new clothes coz the ones I'm wearing are socked in blood and went into the shower.

And the second I turn the shower on I started to feel as if the blood on my hands wasn't getting off.

Shit noo not again! Breath! Fucking breath!
Ok 3 things you can see let's do it. I can do it on my own,
the black rug outside the shower,
the black sponge and the white toothbrush.
3 things you can feel or touch, shit, ahmm.....
water,my long dark hair and  ahm... my.... gold snake earing.
3 thinks you can hear? Shit no I can't do it I only hear water ok fuck that. Move  3 body parts  , my hand, my neck to relieve a bit of the stress and my legs as I stand up from ball sitting position down on the shower floor.

Thank god to the one that invented the 3-3-3 rule.
I am still shaking from the panic attack I just had.

I get those kind of things everytime I get in the shower and have just the minimum amount of blood on me.
The only one who knew and helped me was... him. , I just had to think he was there with me and that he was the one calming me down. I used to have those attacks in school after every kill I had to do.

flashback :

Fuck it hurts so much.
when I hear the bell go off I ran out of there  going towards the women's bathroom .
I go in and lean down on a door of one cabin and I stared to shake uncontrollably.
I hear the door open and I see my rival coming in.

"what's wrong Angel? Hey calm down.„
I hear him say, he crouched down to be on the same level as me  but I was fixed with my eyes on the floor.

" Angel? Hey? Can you hear me?„
I  feel his hand coming to my face brushing a strand of hair behind my ear, and in that moment I flinched at his cold knuckles brushing my cheek slightly.

He then sat himself down beside me. I didn't know what he was up to but then I sensed him lifting me up and putting me on his lap.
He then started to play with my hair. In that moment I hear him say.

"Ok let's do the 3-3-3 rule. What can you see Angel? Breath and speak after.„ OK concentrate on 3 things.

" Th-The pink soap, the paper towels and ahm.. and your rings.„
I begin to slightly calm down .

Breath... breath...

"Ok now 3 things you can feel. „

" Ahm... you breathing against my head, your hand on my hair and  the cold air coming from outside . „
It was a tiny widow open, you can't see thro it and abviosly it's there for fresh air.