Lovely Writer [English Translation]

Seven

When writing a novel, or creating any kind of fiction, the information used in it must be as correct as possible, both to increase the knowledge of readers, as well as to provide realism and various other flavors.

Even if it's a romance novel, which emphasis is on soothing the heart, logic and accuracy are also necessary. Even when writing scenes like...

Scenes like this and that.

What is a scene like this and that? Well... It's a sex scene between the characters.

Several weeks ago when I talked to the editor, he suggested that I should spice up the love story in this new novel. I accepted the suggestion without thinking much about it and instead just focused on writing the regular scenes I had already planned as best as I could. But time passed by too quickly and before long, the time to write the suggested scene arrived.

As I've said before, I am not gay. So if I am going to write a sex scene between two male characters, I have to find accurate information and read other people's novels to look for how these kinds of scenes are usually done. The most worrying thing for me is writing the feelings of the two main characters during the act. How would they feel? This is the hardest.

"With the G-spot..."

I mumble the words I'm currently reading.

It's 3 a.m. and, since I came out of my room to heat up something to eat, I brought my iPad and a notepad to have with me while I sit down on the sofa eating. I know that Nabsib is probably asleep, so I turn on only a small warm light.

Three hours pass without me realizing it and when I turn to look at the window I notice that the sky is starting to get bright... I researched from three to six in the morning and didn't get anything significant.

'Men can also reach their climax without having their genitals stimulated, through the male G-spot.'

"They say that if you press the right spot, the feeling will be a hundred times better than a normal orgasm. Wow, seriously..."

A hundred times?... Are you kidding? If that was the case, wouldn't all the men in the world have switched to having orgasms through their back channel?

Damn, collecting information from the internet is like a double-edged sword. It's easy to find, but you never know what's true and what's not. I kept going from one website to another, reading comments in various threads, until I couldn't take it anymore. I went from kneeling to lying down along the length of the sofa because I felt tired from sitting in the same position for so long. I am also starting to get sleepy. But because I still haven't accomplished what I set out to do, words like G-spot, climax and so on are still floating around in my head.

No, I can't allow myself to go down a tunnel with this... I can't become obsessed with doing research.

As soon as I allow my eyes to close my consciousness gradually begins to slip. My hand slacks and in the back of my mind I know that my phone has just fallen to the ground. I don't know how much time passes, but I think I'm dreaming... It's a very tortuous dream.

I dream that I am stuck in a pile of papers that I've used to write down research information. I start to feel myself suffocate and I can't move. I struggle, and when I finally manage to crawl out of that mountain of papers, I'm forced by invisible tendons that control my hands, to grab several boy's love books, both Thai and foreigner, and to open them one by one, to look up the sex scenes, until my head is dizzy.

When I'm about to hit my head with said books, the skin on my left cheek suddenly feels a slight warmth.

"Gene..."