Am I Making You Feel Sick?

Chapter 6

I stayed silent as I sat on the edge of the hospital bed. Minyu was handing me a change of clothes so I could be discharged. She seemed upset, and I understood. I was not upset, I was scared. What did death feel like? Was it going to hurt? I shouldn't think about it, but what else is there to think about when you've been told that you're going to die within the next six months? She handed me the clothes gently like I was now made of glass. "I'll give you some privacy. I need to step out anyways." She gave a warm smile before closing the door behind her. I slowly got dressed, putting one piece on at a time. All this felt surreal, and I didn't know what was real anymore. My dreams were getting more vivid every day. I stood up, collecting the rest of my things as I walked out to meet Minyu outside. 

"I'm ready." She gave me a slight nod before guiding me back out. Her hand was around my waist as if she was trying to assist me with walking. "I promise I can walk." I said softly. 

"Right, sorry." She let go but stayed close to my side the entire time. The car ride home was silent, and I hated it. Usually, we loved car rides, but this time, it was dreary and dead. She focused on the road as I sat with my head against the window. "Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine." I nodded, never making eye contact. She sighed before fixing her eyes back on the road.  I could tell she was angry, but not at me. I knew she was just angry at everything and anything that caused this, but yet she never brought it up. She held it in for my sake.

As we pulled into the driveway, she turned the car off and sat there momentarily. "I think we should call your parents."

"No." I stated. "I don't want anyone treating me differently. Please don't tell anyone." I begged. I was on the verge of tears, but I was trying to stay strong for myself and her. "Not even Felix."

"Okay, I respect your wishes." She sighed once more before getting out of the car, coming to my side to help me out. "Go inside and lay down." I stood up and carefully made my way in. 

"Thank you for all you've done for me, but I just need some space." I smiled. 

"What if something happens to you and no one is here to help you?" She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms. "You can't deny that you're sick for much longer."

"I know, but I would like one day to myself before it gets worse. Hopefully you would understand that." I walked to my room and closed the door as I heard the front door softly shut. 

What felt like a few minutes turned into a few hours of me sleeping as I felt weaker until there was a knock on the door. I dragged myself out of bed to open it just to see my brother, Byeongho, on the other side. "Did you miss me?" He smiled.

"You know I always do." I laughed while letting him inside. 

"Were you sleeping?" He flopped down on the couch, kicking his shoes off. 

"Just a quick nap." I smiled as I sat next to him. "Did you cut your hair? It looks so bad man." I teased him.

"Hey!" He grabbed his hair. "I just got it done." He frowned; I laughed some more. "Do you have a death wish?" He sighed and rolled his eyes.

"It looks good, I'm kidding." I shoved him playfully as I got up. "Let's go out." I threw a pillow at him.

"I just got here; I need to rest." He laid back on the couch.

"Let's go do something!" I tugged on his arm. "You come all this way to sleep on my couch?"

"You're so stubborn these days." He rolled over and got up. "Let's go eat, yeah?" I nodded as I quicky grabbed shoes. "I'm picking where we eat though." I sighed.

"Yeah yeah. Just hurry up." I walked outside in front of him, getting in the car. He picked a local spot that he always returns to whenever he visits home. "Do you come here anymore?" He asked as we sat down at a table.

"Not really. The last few months have been busy for me and the last couple of weeks have been exhausting." 

"That's too bad. You used to come here all the time after school." He laughed. "You and Minyu used to order so much that you couldn't finish it."

"That was all Minyu. She is so indecisive that she would order everything she wanted because she could never pick." I laughed. "Remember when she would complain about stomach aches after eating all that food? And then she would do it again the next day?" We grabbed our food in front of us and began eating.

"Does she still do that?" He laughed.

"Not much anymore, but sometimes she'll come over for dinner and eat way too much." This was the first time in a while that I had felt at peace. I didn't get to see my brother a lot so it always felt like home when he came to visit. "You should visit more often, you know." 

"I know." He sighed. "I hate leaving you here on your own, but you know you are always welcome to come with me."

"I know, but you know how much this place means to me." I put down my fork. "Maybe you should stay with me for a while."

"Y/n..." I stopped him.

"Just for a week. It would be nice to have my brother around for a while." I begged.

"One week." He caved. "I hope you can handle me for that long." He laughed while sipping his drink. 

"I'm sure I'll be fine. Good luck living with me." I smiled.