An Aloof's Daily Log

Log 4

Hi guys! It's me, Samantha! I'm here again for another log...

Could I still name this thing as daily logs? Even though I did not make logs everyday? Haha...

Well, it is my "THING", so no judgements allowed haha.

Okay so my log for today is gonna be interesting.

Let's start this with a topic called:

Family Ties

avoritism
I love my family. They're supportive in your achievements and they're always present at times you need them.

But there's always this favoritism.

It seems that favoritism always ruins the chemistry of a family. It has been for generations that favoritism makes the family bond less stronger.

Somehow one member or two members of the family decided to pick their favorites, which in our case, my grandparents always sided with my uncle rather than my mother who's always there for them in their highest and lowest.

Typical family issue...

I just couldn't stand seeing my mother suffering life of her broken family and then suffer the consequences of the other side of favoritism.

Who even invented favoritism? Can I confront the person? I'm frustrated because of this...

It's always the favorite who gets everything right? While the other child suffers.

Just last night, we had a talk with my mother and she just bursted out her feelings about my uncle who's after my mom's motorcycle. Our speculation was that he maybe wanted the motorcycle for my cousin.

He even bargained my grandparents to give him the car they just bought.

It's like he wanted everything and never think of my mother, his sibling. And my grandparents always fell for this trap...

I really wanted to confront him but I just couldn't. My family believes respecting the elderly. So, I really couldn't talk about this as I am a mere niece of his.

What does he want? Does he want all of the attention for his satisfaction?

Why does he want to destroy his own sibling? What does he want from us? We're already suffering and he wants us to suffer more by taking all his wants from us?

I just couldn't see the reason why he does these things. He already has everything and he lives a comfortable life with his family.

Maybe that's what the "favorite" does and the other would just give what she has because she feels that she's inferior to him.

Could we stop this? It is kind of toxic.

It's a pain...

It's an additional pain...

You know, sometimes if my uncle and his family would come here to visit us, I'd never fail to brag about what I've done and what my achievements were. I might be wrong but it eases my pain. Somehow, the favorite will always be the favorite even if someone tries to impress his or her achievements and try to replace the favorite.

I guess this is just what families do.

They love and destroy each other at the same time. They want to take everything from the suffering member of the family and indirectly say to her that, "You've done this to yourself." They somehow manage to tickle you with their intimidation for years and brag about their lifestyle by saying, "Oh, we've ordered this and that online. It's really awesome."

We don't want their life but they want ours.

We've helped you at times you needed it the most, but with us? You haven't even lent us a hand  instead you made it worse.

We just want to live our lives peacefully because we have already been through enough.

This is just what I feel as a niece. It's complicated because I can't meddle with it.

I'll just pray for this thing, for your satisfaction to be satisfied, for everything.

Mark these words:

I'll never let you hurt my family!

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