That Fake Love: English version

Chapter eleven

After this last few words he let go of me, walked away and looked in my eyes for a while.

- I-I'm not sure I can tell you everything right now, I don't want to shock you.

- Then tell me what you can tell me for now, that will already be great.

He tried to find his words for a while before he answered me.

- ... I just care about you a lot... Let's go.

I didn't immediately understand what he meant by that, I just saw that he was a little bit embarrassed and blushed slightly. It's on the way that I though that I understood what he wanted to say without actually telling it directly. At a moment I decided to stop walking suddenly and grab his wrist. He seemed a little bit surprised when he turned around. I wa staring at him straight in the eyes. I sighed before I started to speak.

- Jim... I'd like you to tell me the truth. Please don't lie to me. It'll only make it worse....

- I will not lie to you, I promise.

- Well, then... Maybe I'm the one who's imagining things but I'd like to be sure.... Do you love me Jim ? And not just love me as friends, but more as-

- What will you do if I tell you that I love you like a boyfriend loves his girlfriend?

- I admit that I'll be confused... We barely know each other!

- And what will you do if I tell you that I don't love you the way you think I do?

I blush before I answer him.

- ... I think I'd be disappointed.

He passed his hand through his hair.

- Well, then, let me tell you the truth. I have feelings for you. And I can understand that you think it's too fast, but after all, it's not like I can control it. And right now I'm just scared that I'll lose you before we can even actually be together.

I saw his eyes moisten. I'd be lying if I say that I didn't feel anything for him. But it wasn't planned at all and then we can't date someone this quickly. I was afraid, afraid to hurt him but also afraid to do something stupid. I couldn't say no to him, but I couldn't say yes either.

- Jim I-

- Wait before giving me your answer, please... I'd like... that we keep seeing each other the way we did today a few more times. And only after that you can tell me whether your feelings are mutual or not. Think about it and let me prove you that I really love you. Please... Do at least that for me... Because I understand that you're not ready for a relationship yet but I'm not ready for a rejection either.

- A-all right...

After that, we didn't talk anymore until we arrived to my house except to say goodbye.

I really didn't know what to do. Maybe like he said, I could have made up my mind after we spent more time together. I've been thinking about him all the evening. I was just about to go to bed when I noticed that I had a new message from the one who troubled me so much.

Jim : Hey, sorry to bother you so late.

                                                                                                                                         You : Don't worry, u don't. ^-^

Jim : Good, I was afraid to wake you up ^-^.

                                                                                                                      You : It's nice of you to worry, Mr. Lee.  ;)

Jim : LOL.

I could see he was writing, but I was pretty curious about what he wanted to say to me at this hour, especially after what happened just a few hours ago. A few seconds later I finally got his message.

Jim : By any chance, are you free this weekend ?