𝐀𝐳𝐫𝐚𝐞𝐥

𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚍𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚘𝚗

The following are some entries from Azrael's journal about Odelia, which were given to her after his death.

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If this reaches you because somebody secretly gave it to you, I'll slap Elijah, because he's definitely the one who exposed me. If not, then wow. Did I grow balls?

But if it's Matthew or Kieran, man, I'm lowkey disappointed.

Anyway, if you're seeing this Odelia... will you be my dandelion?

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When I walk into a room full of people,
I always look for you first.
I search for your laugh,
the way your eyes light up when you speak of something you love.
The noise fades, and it's just you.
And you're all that matters in a crowd.

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Odelia Eston,

You're captivating. 

The first time I saw you in our class, I felt this weird tug around my chest. You walked in, and everything seemed to stop. It's crazy how one person can take my breath away, but you did. 

You're really fascinating and I want to know you more.

- Azrael Greyson

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I used to think love was supposed to be tough
A burden that dragged us down.
But you're like a dandelion seed,
Light and free, yet strong and resilient against the wind
Carried to wherever your heart wants to go.
And I can't help but to admire your beauty.

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Odelia,

I know this might be unexpected, but... I've been thinking about how much you've changed my life, and it's scary but exciting at the same time.

I never knew I could be this addicted to someone. You make me enjoy coming to school when everything feels like hell. You're just like a candlelight while I'm in the darkness. I just want to talk to you but I can see the wall you built around yourself.

I understand but I hope you can see how amazing you are, even when you doubt yourself.

- Azrael

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My heart is so full of you.
I can hardly call it my own.

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You are the anchor in my storm,
The one that keeps me from drifting away.
When shadows creep and whispers grow loud,
You are the light that guides me through the day.

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Odelia,

I don't know. I'm exhausted. I feel like I'm drowning. But when I see you, everything shifts.

Your smile. It's like sunlight breaking through the clouds. You don't even know how much you help me just by being you. 

But I wished I was the one you smiled at though. I mean well... technically best friends smile and laugh together right so I'm not envious of Verena. 100%. Matthew is talking to Verena so hopefully that means we can interact and talk more.

You're my peace and you have this incredible ability to calm the storm inside me.

Please don't ever forget that.

- Azrael

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At the end of the day,
I want it to be you and me.
I want your early mornings.
I want your late nights.
I want you on your good days.
Even more on your bad.

I want you for you my Dandelion.

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I just want to lay next to you,
And listen to the beat of your heart. 
I just want to close my eyes, 
And fall asleep in your arms. 
I just want to feel you, 
And just forget the world.
And when the world gets dark,
I just want to return home.

You're the home that I haven't had.
But I hope I can.

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Odelia,

I'm sorry. Shit. I did something stupid. I don't have much time. I don't know. My head's spinning and I think I blacked out just now. Gosh... I didn't even get to talk to you yet.

I have been fighting these thoughts for so long, and today... today I just couldn't anymore. But I thought of you, and God, I wish I didn't act impulsively.

You've always been my light, the reason I kept trying. I wanted to be strong for you. But I feel like I'm crumbling, and I don't know how to hold it all together anymore.

Please don't blame yourself. You've done more for me than you can ever imagine by just existing. Keep shining, my beautiful dandelion.

I love you so damn much.

- Az

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