Just a little lie (Expensive Headphones//BMC)

Yes, absolutely.

"Or, I'm sorry if I said something wrong?" He says to break the silence. All of our jaws were wide open so nobody made a sound after what he proposed.

Thankfully, to spare his feelings, My mom shook her head and broke the silence first. "you didn't say anything wrong, Of course we are open to that honey. I would want nothing more than for our son to be with someone as charming and genuine as yourself. You have my full support and my blessing." My mom said pulling him into a hug.

What is happening right now.

"As for you Micheal, if you two plan on a relationship, we will have a discussion later about what that entails." She then said looking at me serious. I don't even flinch, I know she most likely wants to talk to me about how to properly treat him, etc etc. I just pray she doesn't want to give me "the talk." She would be a little too late for that anyway...

"Ah this is very exciting news, Rich, like I said, you are always welcomed at our home. But if your intentions are to date, please keep that door open young man." She said giving him a scolding smile, also joining in on the hug.

I stood there awkwardly and smiled at him.

"Thank you so much Miss and misses Mell. I will do my best for Micheal." He says pulling away from the hug after.

"Well boys, this was a good talk but me and your mom need to go to sleep now, we need to wake up early tomorrow. Can I leave the dishes to you Micah?" I nod. Not really having much of a choice anyway.

I watch as Rich cleans up the table, and after we all said our good nights and everything was finally cleaned up, me and Rich made our way into my room, with the door open of course.

I plop onto my bed face first and stay that way. I was exhausted.

"Should I sleep on the beanbag tonight?" I heard Rich ask. I lift up my face just enough to see him and give him a confused look.

"Shut up and get on the bed." I say rolling my eyes at him.

"But your mom's, won't they be upset if they see us sleeping on the same bed? I just told them my intentions with you so wouldn't we get into trouble?" He says genuinely worried.

I look up at him and bring myself up into a sitting position.

"Richie, my moms hardly care about these things. They literally let me smoke weed, you don't think they would let me sleep with my future boyfriend? We aren't doing anything bad and it's not the first time." I say trying to reassure him.

"Yeah but the last time we had the door closed and they had no idea we were...you know...into each other." He says scratching the back of his neck.

"What's this about? I promise my moms are cool with anything, they just don't want us to do anything gross while they are in the house. Trust me on that, we've already had that convo long ago and they let me know their rules. We are both adults now so it's not weird." I say watching him pace a little.

"Come sit down." I say to him, patting the spot on the bed next to me.

He does as he's told, sitting right next to me. I grab his hand and squeeze it.

"Tell me what's wrong?" I say concerned.

He lets out a big sigh and leans his head on my shoulder.

"I guess I'm not used to this kind of behavior from a parent. I told them my intentions with you because I didn't want them to find out some other way and to get us in big trouble. I'm just not used to parents being so chill about, well, everything. My dad doesn't let me have anyone over, not even Jake who's been my best friend for years." He says anxious.

"You aren't at your dad's Rich.You are here with me, and my moms who adore you. If they weren't okay with something they would sit you down and have a conversation with you about it. They haven't, so that means they are okay with it." I try my best to reassure him but i doubt it's really doing much. I can see him still anxious but trying his best to self soothe.

Seeing him like this always hurt me. I hate his dad. If I could take him in I would.

"Okay. I'll let it go, I was just nervous. I don't want your moms to hate me, this is one of the only places I feel...welcomed and safe." That made my heart tighten a bit. Poor Richie. I want to let him stay here forever but I knew that wasn't realistic.

"Wherever I am Richie, you are always welcomed and safe. I won't let anything happen to you so long as you stay by my side." I say, leaning in to give him a kiss on the forehead.

He leans into it and then we both slowly lay down to get comfortable on the bed. I let him scoot closer to me and instinctively I go to wrap my arms around him.

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After a while of talking and holding each other, I began to feel Rich's chest as it went up and down slowly. He had drifted off to sleep. I pull him in close and close my eyes, trying to follow the rhythm of his breathing to lull me to sleep.

Holding him like this made me realize something fundamental. The truth is, I think I would do anything to make this boy happy. I want to protect him and keep him safe. I want him to feel loved and to know how perfect he is. I want him to know that with me he is always safe, and I would never let anything happen to him again.

Those thoughts scared me a bit. there was so much passion in these declarations. I guess what scared me was the fact that I have never felt this way before about anybody else except Jeremy. I felt so strongly for Rich, it's so scary. What if he doesn't feel as strongly about me as I do? What if he ends up leaving? I wanted to tell him these feelings. But how?

I decide to leave that thought hanging for the night and snuggled closer to Rich. I was begging to get really tired anyway. I think I shouldn't worry too much about losing him and just enjoy that he's here. Soon, I too was fast asleep.