[After that jimin left taehyung's house.]
Next Day Infront of Taehyung's house
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Taehyung opened the door when he heard the bell ring and when opened the door he was welcomed with Jungkook who was standing in the stark light of his porch, white as sheet, looking like he might pass out or throw up at any second.
His hands were covered with blood, and there was some smudge on his cheek too.
He looked like he could be a corpse, he was so pale.
Taehyung stared at jungkook for a second, as jungkook stared at him helplessly, before snapping into action and grabbing jungkook's upper arm to yank him into the house and shut the door behind him.He kept his relish as contained as he could.
Taehyung:Tell me what happened
he ordered.
Jungkook just shook his head, a whimper caught somewhere in his throat, eyes blown wide.
He could feel the emotions lapping at him such terror, and self-loathing, confusion, triumph, resolve and the splintering of it too.
It almost overwhelmed him
For the first time, it felt to him that the positions were reversed. He stared into jungkook's eyes and he saw a liveness and glitters he had seen in his eyes just today morning were no longer present .
When he took jungkook inside his house jungkook's eyes were blind, as he stumbled with his movements, hands held away from his body.
He couldn't help but wonder what the boy had done to get that much blood on his clothes and self , did someone stab him or did he stab him , taehyung hated blood boy when it comes to jungkook then he particularly didn't mind it .
He tugged the other into the bathroom, stripping him off his soaked shirt in a few quick movements,reaching for the belt buckle when jungkook didn't protest, gaze distant and somewhere else entirely.
It was only when he was standing shivering in his boxers that jungkook seemed to come to himself at all,blinking as if waking from a dream.
A nightmare.Their gazes locked for a few seconds, before jungkook's slid away
Taehyung:Shower
Taehyung instructed.
Taehyung: I'll leave some fresh clothes outside the door. Then we'll talk.
Jungkook : I don't want to talk. Not this time. I just -I - just want I need
Jungkook didn't finish, swallowed.
Jungkook:You said you'd help me. You promised! You
Taehyung: Shh, shh...
He reached out, grabbing jungkook's arms tightly again as the boy's breathing picked up, ashe choked and stumbled over the words and air.
Taehyung: I will. I will. You'll tell me what happened, and I'll fix it.
Jungkook:I thought you didn't fix things and just gave others the tools to fix it themselves?
Jungkook mumbled.He smiled softly, cupped the other's cheek to nudge his eyes up.So near broken now.
All it would take now was a push, he could reach out, grab that currently exposed core in his hands squeeze and twist. He let his attention brush over it instead, like his hands grazed against jungkook's bare skin
Taehyung: I help my friends. Now shower. Unless you need help getting the blood off your hands? I'll be leaving the door unlocked
Jungkook wasn't throwing up this time. He seemed to have gone beyond that, flittering in and out of adissociating state. There was absolutely no way, from the perspective of a psychiatrist, that he could leave the boy alone now.
He was too unpredictable on what he'd do.
Now he just got to decide if he wanted to tip him off the edge of reality he was teetering on, or ground him to face his consequences.
He felt a glorious rush of power go through him, and something in jungkook's eyes flickered.
The boy stared at him for several long moments, as if forgetting to flinch from his eyes, forehead pinched, before he just seemed to get more tired and turned for the shower.
Jungkook hadn't been able to do it.
He just not three of them. Maybe he was a coward, or weak, for not being able to kill to save lives.
He'd be a terrible soldier, but that was still what everyone seemed to expect from him.
He let Daisy's blood pour down the drain of Taehyung's gleaming white shower.
He felt too tainted to be in the man's house, with two murders now under his belt, but he hadn't known who else to turn to.
He didn't want to see the disgusted horror on Jimin and Yoongi's faces.
He didn't want to burden them,bringing a serial killer to their door.
Killing a criminal copy cat murderer was very different to essentially choosing a victim, carefully disabling the security in the holding room, and His chest heaved, retched, but he had nothing to throw up.
His knees felt like they could crumble beneath him.
Even when the water was so hot it burned against his skin, leaving it red and raw, he still didn't feel clean.
He stood there until the water ran to ice instead, barely noticing the difference.
He needed to get a grip, but however much he was able to keep his cool during a murder, during work, when it was over and all he had left was what he'd done, it was just so much more difficult.
He didn't want to get a grip if it meant looking in the mirror with the realization he didn't even recognise the man staring back anymore.
He distantly heard a knock on the bathroom door.
Taehyung: jungkook you've been in there for half an hour. Indicate your still alive and okay, or I'm going to come in.
Jungkook stared at the door listlessly, unable to even get out a word.If he opened his mouth, he'd start screaming, and then he had a horrible feeling he wouldn't be able to stop.
Taehyung was never an impatient person but after seeing jungkook in the state he was impatient to know what had happened. He knew jungkook had some kind of interrogation by higher officers regarding the death of a copycat murderer but he didn't know why jungkook would come like this .
He knocked on the door again
Jungkook:I'm fine
It was barely audible. Taehyung probably didn't even hear. He stepped out, wrapped a towelv around himself as the door opened.
Jungkook : I'm fine He repeated, louder. I'm fine. I'm fine.Okay
Taehyung : I know Taehyung said.
Jungkook : I'm fine,he said, again.
Taehyung looked at him for a moment, and he wanted to cringe, gritting his teeth so another repetition of that worthless lie wouldn't come out of his mouth.
Once he was dressed, the other guided him down to the sitting room, perhaps rightly assuming he wouldn't be sleeping any time soon.
It all felt so awfully familiar to last time.He wondered if there had been a next time.
Last time he'd promised there wouldn't be, now he justdidn't know anymore.He swallowed, wetted his lips, made a futile effort to bring himself back under control.
Jungkook:I saved them
he said.
Jungkook:That's what matters, isn't it?
He hated the humiliating edge of desperation in his voice.
Taehyung:You said you were going to talk with higher officers more like interrogation what happened
Jungkook: It's went well but
Taehyung: but what
Taehyung intoned softly.
Jungkook's eyes squeezed shut, as he let out a shaky exhale.
It was too much.
Jungkook : It was just too much all too much ,I feel like I'm becoming him. Slowly. That he's just chipping away from what's me, until there's nothing left and there's nothing to hold onto because what I hold onto is what he's using against me in the first place-I don't
Taehyung just looked at him, perhaps waiting for him to verbalise, but he couldn't . He couldn't pinpoint when it had happened , all he remembered was getting a card saying his one of bestfriend and his chief officer Cha Eunwoo was kidnapped.
And he got unknown msg telling if he doesn't kill the person who will be mentioned then his bestfriend will be dead .
Jungkook took taehyung's hand in his
Jungkook: taehyung I swear I didn't want to kill but Eunwoo is important to me , just like my mother, yoonie hyung and jimin hyung I don't want to loose any of them that's why I killed the person , I killed him brutally just like it was mentioned in msg
I feel terrible taehyung I can't I can't . I should be ashamed of myself .
He said while holding taehyung's hand
Jungkook: you understand me right
Taehyung released his hand from jungkook and cupped his cheeks
Taehyung: what happened explain to me correctly
Jungkook took deep breath before explaining .
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