Finding Solace

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CLOVER ASSADA SAROYAN
FRIDAY AUGUST 1ST,2025

I bit my lip constantly feeling how my emotions everywhere right now " Clover I see you're having a hard time with this one just take it slowly. You know there's no judgement here take your time and let it all come back to you. We need to know why you started hating yourself so much that you almost committed suicide, once we hit the core memory that's stopping you from healing you'll feel so much better." My therapist Said in a calm voice causing my voice to crack.

" I...I'm scared I don't want to relive that day."

" I know Clover but we've covered everything else first already we have to get through the last hurdle" he continued to press, I wanted to gather my things and just leave but I knew it'll only be hurting myself more than anything. " fine" I grumbled. I laid back on the couch looking up at the ceiling taking a deep breath.

" it all started when Santino made me kill one of his enemies..."

FLASHBACK (OMNISCIENT POV)

"Come on just fucking do it already" Santino Growled out Clover sobbed not wanting to do what her father was forcing her to do. " kill her or I kill you it's all so simple and once I kill you I'll go home and kill your mother and brother. You know I will shit, i might even. Go kill your little friends you're always hanging out with. You think I don't know shit huh? You think I'm dumb?. I'll kill every fucking body you care about!" Santino taunted her with an evil smile on his face.

He loved torturing her clover picked up the knife feeling her self have an out of body experience " kill her" she ignored the female sobs " Santino please I'm sorry!" She pleaded but Santino didn't want to hear it .

" fuck your sorry, I told you to abort that fucking baby but no you drop him off at my house while my fucking wife is there?!" He growled out, clover heart broke she was being forced to kill her brother's birth mother. " please Santino that was years ago, if you want me to raise him now I will." She sobbed holding her side where Santino had stabbed her recently. Santino laughed "why the fuck do you think I'm killing your now huh? My fucking wife knows you've been sneaking around. You can't be in his life now he's my wife's son! If you would've aborted him when I told you too we wouldn't be having this conversation! You'd have my dick in your mouth instead."

Clover stood in the corner as they argued she was only fourteen years old she didn't want to do this, her brother would hate her if he ever found out. She didn't want Santino to throw this in her face years from now and turn her only sibling against her.

" Clover get the fuck over here and kill this bitch" Santino yelled tired of the conversation, he pointed his gun at Clover shooting by her head causing her to flinch and run over to him. " now you want to fucking listen, Stab her up motherfucker!" Santino yelled waving the gun around.

" I can't !" Clover sobbed " it's Crees mom I can't" Clover pleaded with him she couldn't do this.

Santino grabbed her by the hair throwing her to the floor punching and kicking her " you stupid motherfucker you just don't fucking listen. You're gonna risk losing everything over her huh ?! She don't give a fuck about you."Santino yelled slapping the gun across her face.

" stop !! Santino stop" SaCree Mother Sachaè screamed in horror. " how can you do this to your own child !!" She screamed trying to get up, Santino turned to her pointing his gun at her shooting her in the shoulder " shut the fuck up, what I do with my mother fucking daughter is on me not you. I'm tired of you fucking talking out of order !" Santino yelled pulling Clover up