suicide landslide

chapter 1

Pain was stinging from my wrist and leg small cuts with blood falling down slowly I huffed out in the dark cold night air

The knife next to me shines in the moon light
".. Fuck.. " I mumbled out as I took my shirt sleeve rubbing the blood away only for more to come out 

As I slowly lay down kicking the knife off my bed I heard it fall
The pills that I had took running in my blood.. Gosh.. Hope I die..
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Sun rises and the light hits my face my short brown curls messy on my head my eye bags pushed my green eyes open as I run my hand on my face
There was dry blood on my wrist and I felt tired

"... Damn.. Still here.. " I heard a knock on the door glancing over I heard my mom yell in

"Sam!! Get up its time for school! " her voice was.. Sweet like candy or a misty rain

"Ok! " I tried to yell back only for my voice to crack

I push myself up as it all at once hits me I groan as my legs moved Shakingly over to the cold floor below me

I grabbed a dirty black shirt spitting on my wrist as the blood slowly became wet again I wiped it off with the shirt before tossing it down I grabbed a gray hoodie pulling it on making sure my wrists were covered as I grabbed some pants

My hair was a messy still as I walked down the stairs the smell of Coffee and cinnamon filled my nose

"Sammy! Good you're up! " My mom said to me She had long brown hair with curls almost like mine the only this I didn't get from her was her deep blue eyes..

"Yeah I'm up! " I smiled at her before sitting down

"I need to ask a favor-" My mom was normally like this always had me on the run doing things I didn't mind when I was younger but now I'm 18

I just nod grabbing a Cinnamon roll

"Can you run down to Mr Ethan's flower shop I need to get flowers for your grandma I'm gonna visit her in the hospital today after you get off school!  Though we could all go? " my mom has always been an angel
So pure and sweet my childhood was me laughing a lot..

"Uhm.. Yeah I like seeing Ethan I go.. "

"Great uhmmm.. Ok I'll drop you off at school and pick you up at the flower shop? "

I nod as my mom fixed my hair..
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I stared out the window As the sun slowly rised up creating an Umbra of orange and red the clouds looking more fluffy then I remembered

My mom was singing along to every song in her phone sometimes making me sing with her

Before I know it we arrived at.. Hell.. The school looked so cold and heartless I hated it here..

Kids I use to know now are sluts or trash talk.. I wonder how a fun place now is something I hate..

"Bye baby! Love you! "

".. Uh bye mom! " I smiled waving back once I saw the red car drive off I glared at the floor slowly walking in..

As the doors pushed open I saw Kenny Davidson the school football star push Bobby pear.. They use to be best friends until Bobby hurt his knee and couldn't play..

I walked past ignoring the fight that I'll break out soon enough

"Sam! " I glanced over to see Kyle Skype yes that's his full name.. I know...

Kyle has been the only one who stayed friends with me why I'm not sure but I smiled at him either way

"Yo! I missed you bro" I said as we shook hands

Kyle wrapped his arm around me as we walked

"Hope you didn't think to much about me last night! " he wink Kyle knew I was bisexual

".. Trust me I was busy! " I laughed halfway looking away

"So prom it's coming up who you taking? "

I shrugged

"Come on Sam! Maybe.. Uh.. Jeffrey? What about him? I heard he's gay? "

I cringed Jeffrey was weird..

"No thanks.. I rather kill myself" I laughed looking at the floor

"Hm.. Ok.. Uh.. Janet? "

"Who? "

"You know Janet John? She a year below? "

I laughed

"Oh yeah! .. Haha.. No I heard she pregnant? "

This made Kyle shake me

"For real?! "  I laughed slightly only for it to be cover by the bell

"Damn I gotta go but we will be talking about this!! " I waved bye as my friend ran off only to get yelled at for running

I quickly opened my locker pushing my bag in grabbing my books as I shut my locker I turned around to see Alex..

"Hey loser? " Alex smiled at me yeah he was like every high school bully.. Bully...

"Alex can't you beat the shit out me later I'm running la-" before I could say anything else I was slammed into the locker

I closed my eyes as pain ran up my back my books fell to the floor as Alex gripped my shirt

"I heard youre gay? " he glared into my eyes as I just looked at him

"Uhm... Thats been known I'm bi or are you just slow? " I smirked slowly only for Alex to punch me in my face the punch pushed my head back into the locker hard as I closed my eyes

Alex always had a short temper I could feel the blood running down my nose Alex dropped my calling me a Faggot before walking off I saw him pull out a cigarette

I wiped my nose my gray hoodie darkened a little as I grabbed my books can't believe Alex use to be my friend... Everyone was...