I sit against the wall tears streaming down my face clutching a photo of demi like I always do on this day of the past three years. This day is the only day where I can break down where all the emotions that come from missing her can come pouring out. I don't have to put of a strong front to show everyone that I'm okay to let my son know that we will be fine I don't have to lie to myself not on this day. I can spend all my time drowning in my own sorrows showing Demi that I really do miss her and staring at her photo as if it can meracaissly bring her back to life, back into my arms. But I snap back in reality and boom fresh tears are flooding down my face she's never coming back there's nothing no one can do she's gone. Today is the anniversary of demis passing a day that will haunt me for the rest of life the day my beautiful wife died three years ago.I finally gain some self control and mange to stop the tears as I really look at the picture in my hands. The picture is just Demi smiling at the camera with the califronia scenery behind her. Everything about her was beautiful from her looks to her voice to what she stood up for she was just an amazing person that I love so much it hurts. As I sit here staring out this photo my mind cant help but flash back to the memories we had shares.
*Flash Back*
I took a deep breathe as I tried to calm my nerves I didn't know why I was so nerves Demi and I had always spent time apart but that was just too long. Demi had been on tour for six excessively long months. In those six months I had only saw her three times and I was just dying to have her back in my arms. I couldn't wait to she her face when she got off that plane knowing she wasnt expecting me to be picking her up but couldn't let her get off the plane and not see me after six months every minute away from her seemed to feel like enternity. A soon as the people began to emerge from the terminal my eyes began wildly searching for the face I'd been longing to see. And then from across the room we locked eyes I smiles I watched her eyes widen and her lips turn into a face eating smile as she ran toward me soon jumping into my arms. Before either of us could say a word our lips connected I played with the tips of her hair as I savored the moment. In that moment we didn't care who was watching we didn't care if the media didn't approve of us we didn't care about the age difference in that moment all that mattered was that after six months we were finally back into each arms.Those are the time that I never thought we'd have a last kiss.
*reality*
Throughout the years we had many more moments like that those were always my favorite it always proved that our love for each other would never fade no matter how long we were apart nothing could phase us we would concur the world together if we had to. But this day always left me thinking about demis last days wich were the worst days in my life. Although it was hard to watch her go I'm happy to say I know she died peacefully wich is not always true for the people who had lost their battles with cancer. I still remember her last day like of they were yesterday and honestly sometimes I wish I could just forget or pretend that it was just a bad dream and when I woke up Demi would right beside me.
*flash back*
I was standing outside demis hospital room. She was rushed to the er when she suddenly could barely breathe and she has been in icu ever since then which was about three days ago. Mentally I was a mess the doctors had explained that Demis body couldn't handle much more and it was just a matter of time till it just stopped and know everyday felt like a ticking clock like I'm the blink of moment demi would have taken her last breathe my world would come crashing down and I wasn't ready but I knew I had to be because even I knew there wasn't much time. I paced back and fourth outside her room as I waited for her and her sister to finish there conversation I couldn't help but wonder what they were talking about was Demi saying her final goodbye was Demi tried of fighting? Soon Dallas emerged from the room her eyes puffy her face tear stained "she wants to talk to you" Dallas stated her voice was hoarse. I took a deep breathe afraid of what Demi wanted to say. "Hermosa what is it" I asked as I grabbed her hand and sat beside her "wilmer I want you to take me home" she stated firmly "but why" I asked only because I knew the machines were the things that were keeping her alive for the most part. Tears welled in her eyes as she began to speak again "wilmer this it I can't hold on much longer I don't want to die in a hospital bed I wanted to die peacefully in my own house where I can be in peace for my last hours I know you want to keep me alive for as much as possible but I don't want to anymore I can't take it so baby please if you love me can you just obey my wishes? She asked softly as she blinked her tears away. "okay angel I understand I'll go get you discharged and then we can go home" I said slowly still in shock from what I was told.within in hour Demi was in our bed rocking Dylan to sleep he 2 then he had the biggest face eating smile just like his mother. As per Demi request no one else when in the house just me her and Dylan our little family. Once Dylan had fallen asleep I offered to take him from her but she refused she stroked his hair for a little while before she handed him to me she had placed kissed all over his face "I love you my sweet baby boy" Demi wishphered to him before I took him and placed him in his room. When I came back into the room Demi eyes where red and puffy and she was quickly wiping the tears that rapidly fell down her face.I got on the bed and laid beside her I was lying on my side so I could face her. Wilmer I just wanted you know I never loved someone as much as I love you I always have and I always will and I knew it from the moment we met back when I was only 17 and you've been such and wonderful husband to me and your such a great father and I know you'll be find even when I'm not with you anymore" she stated weakly I couldn't help but let a few tears fall I knew that was it, it was coming to an end." I love you so much it hurts you'll never understand how much I love and how much I'll miss you demetria devonne lovato you were my first and only love I'll miss you deeply but Hermosa it's okay you can let go now" I said as I placed a kiss on her lips I never thought we'd have a last kiss but I sadly I knew that'd would be it. "I'm going to sleep now I love you and Dylan so much" demi said and then she drifted into a sleep that she would never wake up from. As soon as I noticed her chest stop moving and her hands go cold I burst into tears I couldn't believe she was gone the love of my life gone but that's when I learned how to be strong for my son and for Demi.
"she said boy can I tell you a terrible thing it seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks please don't be sad now I really believe you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me"
THE END :(
I know it's been a while but I had no computer but yeah I had to end it the quote at the end is the song that inspired the whole story terrible things by mayday parade but yeah I hope you guys liked it but stayed tune I'm starting a new fanfic really soon :)
