that one day

My confessionin

"Because the other day you were asleep and i didn't want to wake u up so i just decided to go on twitter but my phone was dead so i just used yours and i was going to dm somebody and accidentally found out that you were going to meet a fan for da-" but before i could say anything else tears started to drip down my face " jc hugged me "babe you've got this all wrong i did not plan on meeting anybody that was sam i let him use my twitter because his got hacked" jc replied while laughing but before i knew it people ran up to jc asking for photos fan:"jc can i please have a picture of you?" and jc being the nice person said yes but when i walked away from jc so the girl could get a picture of jc by himself he grabbed my arm "where are u going?" "they want pictures of you not me jc" i was always self conscious of how i looked or of other girls but i never really told jc this i thought he would leave me if i ever did tell him "well we are together and if they are true fans they will support who i am in love with or who i hang out with" after that whole thing happened we went home and i knew that i couldn't do it just thinking of every pretty girl and that wanted a picture of jc they were all so pretty i couldn't handle the fact that jc could just leave me for one of his fans so when i was at jc's house i knew i had to pull him away from the boys and tell him "jc can we talk in private upstairs?" "yea sure guys Katie and I will be right back" jc told all the boys all of them shook their heads. "what is it babe?" he said concerned knowing i was sad "jc i just wanted to talk to u about today and i want you to know that if you want to break up with me after this i will always love you like i have never loved" i started to cry a when i was explaining my problem to jc "but today more than ever I realized it. And can't do it anymore I have been hiding a secret that you might not think is huge but it is really big for me. Ok so today when you where taking pictures with fans I saw a lot of beautiful girls and they would do anything to be with you.and I realized how blessed I am to have you but also how cursed I am know that you could just leave me any day for anybody really and I just can't bare it anymore I need you to know that I am self conscious and I scared to lose you like I did my last because of this problem"I felt tears full of maskera roll down my face as all of my secret came out "Katie I don't care what people say you are perfect and you don't understand how madly in love I am with you and no other girl can change how o think of you" He said giveing my the best hug and kiss I have ever had But we where interrupted by all the boys awwing and smiling. I could do was smile "and Katie jc is right your so pretty you should not be self conscious of how you look because at the end of the day look who has jc fricken caylen as her boyfriend" jc wiped the tears from my face and kissed my for head. They where right I mean I know it would take me a long time before I would be able to get out of this state of depression but trying never hurt anybody right?