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I cringed as I heard the floor creak as I took a step into my house. It was currently six thirty in the morning and I was attempting to sneak into my house. I went to  a party last night and woke up in an extremely hot strangers bed and I'm almost sure I knew what happened. I luckily woke up earlier than him and got to avoid the awkward tension. For god's sake I don't even remember his name but whatever doesn't matter.

I made it up the stairs and into my room quietly closing my door behind me. Once I was fully in my room I laid down on my bed and decided I should go shower and rid the smell of beer and sex. I grabbed my panties and bra along with my towels and went into the bathroom.

I let the hot water run for a few minutes before I got into the shower and sighed. I let the hot water relax me and my hangover as I washed my hair and body.

After my shower I went into my room  and took some Advil to try and take away the pounding in my head. I changed into spandex and a grey crop top along with some fluffy socks. I plopped down onto my bed grabbing my phone and seeing no missed calls or anything. 

I figured I'd be home all day since most of my friends have hangovers as do I, so I pulled out my laptop going on Netflix and decided to watch Orange is the New Black since I haven't finished it.

I started falling asleep when I heard someone knock on my room door. I groaned. " come in " I yelled " Kelsey you look sick " my mom said when she walked in and that's what I felt. sick. I groaned again and she pat my back a little bit. " do you want anything to eat? " she asked me while rubbing my back.

I thought for a second " uh yes I'll have a pancake please? thanks " she nodded and kissed my forehead leaving my room shortly after asking if I wanted anything else.

After breakfast I decided to call my friend Maddie and tell her to come over because I was bored and honestly had nothing else to do. I freshened up a little and when she arrived we  binge watched The Vampire Diaries and cuddled until around five and she suggested we go on a walk.

" sooo you disappeared with that hot guy last night " she said winking " so tell me, was it as great as his looks " she giggled " wellll i actually cant remember Maddie. I was so drunk i don't even remember his name " I frowned a bit but then soon came out of it " anyways it doesn't matter. The less I know the smaller the chances of me getting hurt are " I smiled and walked down the sidewalk not caring much of anything.

" not every guy is going to hurt you Kelsey " I heard Maddie say behind me " well they all have so why get involved. I'm perfectly fine with one night stands. " I smiled at her but questioning if I was actually ' perfectly fine ' with it but brushed it off and kept walking.

As I was walking I thought back to  my old relationships. My first relationship was when I was 14 and it was really good honestly and I thought I loved him until he wanted to have sex but I didn't and he got angry and broke up with me and spread rumors about me. At that time I didn't think of it much other than I chose a dick of a boyfriend.

My second relationship was shortly after that one and it was okay. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't that good. He wasn't how I wanted him to be so I soon broke up with him.

My third relationship was when I was 15 and I lost my virginity to this boy. it was almost a year together and I thought I loved him so much but, it turns out he was cheating on me for half the relationship and I was heartbroken.

My fourth relationship was when I had just turned 16 and it was my best relationship ever. We both were so in love and he treated me great. He was the best thing to ever happen to me. I loved that boy more than anyone could imagine. He treated me like a fucking princess. We'd do crazy shit and get in trouble together but one day, he was leaving my house and I remember that week he had stayed with me all week.

He stayed all week at my house and he said he loved me over and over as if I would forget. The morning he left we made love. I went to shower and when I got out he was in a rush and frantic but before he left he kept repeating how much he loved me and that he always would. He left with tears in his eyes and an hour later his mom called me telling me he had gotten shot.

I was broken. shattered. I felt like my world was crashing under me. I proceeded to getting high and drunk to rid my feelings. I started having sex with strangers and I still do. I don't believe in love anymore. I never will again. I don't care what anyone says. My bad habits have died down but sometimes they're uncontrollable.

" Kelsey! " I heard my friend yell as she shook me cutting off my thoughts. " Kels are you okay? " she asked worried. I hadn't noticed there were tears in my eyes but I quickly wiped my eyes nodding assuring her I was fine.

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hello! ok so idk if these chapters are too long but if they are please  tell me. It's pretty boring right now but by chapter 3 I hope its much bore interesting oh and btw my name is Alex!! :-)