People says there is only one certain thing in this world and that is DEATH.
This is not a novel nor a short story... it's actually my diary or just a bunch of useless words whatever it is I don't care. :(((
This is where I pour all the miseries na nararanasan ko ngayon may nakapagsabi kasi sa akin na nakakagaan daw sa pakiramdam kapag isinulat mo sa papel ang nararamdaman mo, but I don't believe her kasi walang nagbago Im still feeling tons of pain!!! sobrang bigat ng dibdib ko parang sasabog na 'to...sana nga para matapos na ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.
There are some people na tinataningan na ang buhay nila ng mga doktor...sinasabi na "6 months that would be the extent of your life" that's it at yung mga tinataningan naman they will do everything to save their souls from the sea of fire in hell don't get me wrong pero that is how I see it gagawin nila ang lahat to correct their mistakes, to say sorry to all the people na nagawan nila ng masama, to make a bucket list na gagawin nila para masabi nila na they have lived a full life at wala na silang pinagsisisihan, to enjoy their remaining days, and to say I love you to the person they love. Kahit papano masuwerte na sila.
Pero paano yung namatay ng biglaan? Yung ang smooth ng lahat then just a snap.. boom ! they are gone.
without words spoken, without anything left to their loved ones they will be gone forever.
Do you get me?
Nakamamatay ang sakit diba? Ano kaya yung feeling nung mga tao na yun? Anong pumasok sa isip nila nung namatay na lang sila bigla? Have they seen themselves na wala ng buhay? Natakot ba sila? Nagwala at nagsisisigaw at na frustrate dahil hindi sila naririnig ng lahat? Are they sad because they weren't able to say what they are suppose to say to their families or their special someone?
Eh siya anong naramdaman niya?
I'm not sure if I could ever moved on. Many of the people around me will never understand what is I truly feel. I always smile...showing them that what happened was sad but the truth is it pained me so much ...and been giving me pain until now.
p.s: Like what I did yesterday...
I am still missing you
