so this will be a part 2 to 'when i feel like an open wound' so i suggest you to read that before this. the idea with this is what if travis wasnt as sick as taylor, and decided to help her. starts with the moment taylor tells travis about her illnes. ok this time i can actually say this, enjoy!
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"So that's basically it. And before you answer anything I want you to know that you can't change my mind with this." I told Travis. For the entire time I told about my feelingsto Travis I had my eyes on my lap, where my hands were, intertwined with Travis's. "Baby.." Travis said and I looked up. He had tears in his eyes. Actual tears. "Taylor, I know this isn't what you want to hear but I will try my best to change your mind. I know our thing is fairly new, but what we have is something special. I can feel it. I already care about you so much, and I will do anything to heal you. I will give up everything if that's what's needed. I will do anything." he said and looked into my eyes. I had made a promise with myself to kill myself at the start of The Eras Tour. Why was he making question it. I looked at him for a moment. Then he took my hands and put them near his mouth and kissed them. "Please." he simply said, and looked into my eyes.
And there really was something different with that look. Cause after that I said "Okey." and my entire world changed.
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Suddenly two weeks later from that moment we, as in me and Travis, were sitting at a therapists office. Like really. The person I was two weeks ago wouldn't have came to therapy ever. She would've done anything to not come here. I think she would've rather actually killed herself. But now here I was. And there weren't even any convincing to get me here. Travis just asked if I wanted to come here and I was like "Okey". Our bond really wasn't like any other.
"Hi!" the therapist said when she came to the hallway, and looked at me and Travis. She, of course, already knew who I was. She had to sign an NDA even before getting to know whos therapist she was going to be.
I got up and Travis did too. He hugged me and whispered "It's going to go well. I'm so proud of you" into my ear. I wasn't so sure, but hearing Travis say those words really helped me.
The therapist was a woman, only slightly older than me. We talked for the whole hour. It felt scary but somehow relieving. I hadn't been to therapy since I was thirdteen. And now that i was doing it I couldn't understand why I had refused it all those years.
When I got out Travis ran straigt to be and took me into his arms like going to the therapy was like winning some big throphy. Well it kind of was, atleast to me.
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My progress started showing slowly. Until it all fell to an end. At this point me and Travis had already been together for a year. I was supposted to do a concert at Vienna, but there was a planned terrorist attact. I just couldn't handle it. For first few hours it was fine. But then it all hit. Thousands of people could've died because of me. I was really a disaster to this earth.
This time it wasn't my mom who found me. It was my publicist Tree. And the thing I did was propably the most stupid. I put a pillow into my head, and held it there as long as I couldn't breathe anymore.
The next time I woke up I was somewhere different, and Travis was looking at me. "Where am I?" I asked him. "You are in your London home. We flew here after what happened." he said and them there was a slow pause. "Do you remember what happened?" he asked and took my hand and looked at my worriedly. "I remember trying to kill myself. And I remember the Vienna thing." then it hit me. "What are you doing here! You're supposted to be at the training camp!" I said, well more likely yelled. "Taylor, any camping camp isn't even close as important as you. The second I heard what happened I flew here. Well your mom is here too. She's asleep tho. It's like 2 am." he said. "And what were you doing up?" I asked. "I haven't been able to sleep. I wanted you to wake up." he said and I gave him a kiss on the lips. "Travis, you shouldn't have done that." I told him, and pulled him into the bed with me. "Please sleep now. I'll sleep with you." I told him and he hugged me close, in the big spoon little spoon position, me being the little spoon of course. I actually didn't sleep, I just laid there with him.
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It was the 8th of December 2024. The day I promised myself to get out of this world. Instead I was laying on the bed with Travis Michael Kelce, my saviour. Without him I would't be here anymore. It was almost midnight, and we were talking about sweet little things. I knew the conversation was coming, but I didn't expect it to be this soon.
"So do you wanna talk about it?" he ased and looked at me. "About what?" I asked, trying to avoid the subject. "You know what." he said and took my hand and kissed it. It had kind of become our thing. "I'm just so so thankful you came into my life. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be here anymore. I love you too." I told him and kissed him. "I love you to, my Taylor." he said. I felt the weird pain on my stomach. It wasn't painful enought for me to take medicine, but it was enought to feel. I didn't tell him about it tho.
In the morning I woke up with a sickness. I unfolded myself out of Travis's arms. And I started running to the bathroom as fast as I can. He woke up at that and followed close behind me. I opened the toiled lid and threw up, while Travis held my hair and caressed my back. Then it hit me. I was having a morning sickness. I looked up at him "Travis." I said with teary eyes. "Yes baby?" he asked still caressing my back. "I think I'm pregnant" I said with teary eyes. "Okey. First of all, that's amazing. Secondly, do you have a test here?" he asked and kissed my cheeck "I son't." I said and started to get up. Travis stopped me right that second and took me into his arms. "There's no way you're walking right now. I'll take you back to bed, and go to the nearest store real quick. You just wait there." he said. This is exactly why I loved him.
After waiting for a while in the bed and peeing in a stick, I was sitting in the bathroom floor with Travis. Waiting for the result to come. The test was backwards, so we could see the result when we wanted to. "Okey are you ready?" I asked him. "As ready as I can be" he replied and kissed me quickly. I took the test and flipped it. Two lines.
And at that moment I knew our baby was another reason I stayed. Travis being the other. If he didn't come up in my life, I wouldn't be breathing right now. But I was. With a creation of our love inside of me.
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okey im here to advertise my new fanfic. you can find it in my profile. its called 'like any true love, it keeps you guessing'. and about taylor and travis of course. i would really appriciate if yall check it out ;). if you wont hear from me with one shots i am probably busy with that fic. but yeah see yall (hopefully) soon.
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