CLOUDED (KAYLOR)

Chapter 18

Karlie took her time moving on but she finally felt okay, safe and secure in a relationship where her mind won't hurt so much thinking for a way to work. A guy that could guarantee her future. Although her heart won't ever be the same. She went back for him. Although, She misses the singer's scent, bubbly energy and all that the shorter girl was made of. But she decided that she's had enough. She's not even sure she's ready for all that there would've been. 

While she laid on her back on her couch staring at the ceiling, she heard knocks that interrupted her thoughts.
"Coming!" She yelled ... While she tumbled down her couch and rushed to the door.

She unlocked and opened the door. Behind it stood her boyfriend. "Hey Karls!" He greeted her with a peck on the lips.
The pictures of Tay and her kissing was questioned before he took her back but he didn't let it get in the way of getting back the model. He loves her too much to even bother. Karlie told him it was just an accident but they both know it wasnt.

Once Josh came in, he took of his coat and snaked his arms around Karlie's waist once she locked the doors and they both went to sit on the couch.

Josh just got back from overseas and he missed watching the model come undone. He shifted in his seat and pulled Karlie on his lap while he kisses her neck. Karlie ignored him while her eyes were glued to the TV. She didn't want to do it but when he kissed her favorite spot, she couldn't help but gasped a little.

Then, Karlie thought she should just let herself go and not think about Tay tonight. Josh switched off the TV and caressed her thighs, sending shivers all over her body.
Then she positioned herself facing him and Josh quickly pinned her to the couch. He started moving his hands all over her body and taking off her shirt. Karlie felt loved at the moment. She felt like he is showing her the love she deserves with his gentle touches.
She finally lets go of her thoughts on Taylor that night.

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Crumpled papers laid everywhere around her. She was in a mess. She had to let the words flow but nothing seemed to fit with what she felt. She was so stressed she scribbled on the paper with everything she had wrote. Until the paper tore up. And banged on the keys of her piano. "Arrrghh!!!" She screamed to let out her frustrations... The thought of her gave burns on her brain... Engraving the pain in her soul.
The more words that flows, simultaneously increasing her frustrations. None of what she'd written made sense, she thought as she stared down and looked at the words she wrote.

Memories in her head keeps flashing back to their good times and bad ones too. The first day they met was one of the best moments she had with the model. She wished she could turn back time and do it right. Give her love.

She also remembered the time she sang an unreleased song to the model. Hints given were very obvious to be subjected to the model but at that moment the model didnt seem to notice. A hard stone face appeared on the model's face when the words flew out. It was painful to watch but Taylor performed it with such grace and expertise, the pain didn't show.
They were living so close but their hearts and minds are thousands of miles away.

Finally after a while ... The song was finished written and to be put on the album....last minute ...

Tonight. Karlie thought to watch Taylor perform in NYC. Her first show celebrating the singer's album release. No one knew the playlist or ever heard of the new songs...  From rumors, Karlie expected songs written about herself in the album and thinking about it scares the hell out of Karlie..  She was nervous of what Taylor thinks of her the whole time they were together and the small fights and the first time they met. She needed to know if the singer ever felt it or were they just lies.

      
        That night as Taylor stood in front of her backstage room's mirror, she could see the terror in the eyes of the girl who left her a few years ago and saw someone else with the same face staring back at her. A different vibe flows through her veins. Strong and confident, broken yet beautiful. In love but hates it.

1/3 of the songs written were about her. Her heartbeat rises along with her thoughts. She finalize her lipstick and kissed the mirror before the backstage crew called her on que.

"Taylor!Taylor!Taylor!" She heard the crowd scream in harmony... Music to her ears but poison to her confidence.... As she grabbed her mic and saw the blinding light shining on her. . .

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Karlie gasped upon seeing her.  She missed her.