reunited hearts {SPENCER REID}

EIGHT

Bakersfield, CA
Mallory

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I impatiently sat at he table, my leg bouncing up and down at a quick pace. Hotch took my laptop, my phone, and the SUV keys. It's like I'm on fucking punishment for something I figured out, and for what? God knows.

I shakily breathed in, trying not to let the tears caused by anger escape. I am never doing a damn case with them again, ever the fuck again. I don't care if Hotch gets on his knees and begs me, he can go rot in hell.

I looked over as the team walked in, dragging a dude in handcuffs behind him. Looks like they caught one of the buyers, looks like you could get a lot out of him.

I saw Reid walk over, and I rolled my eyes and looked off. "So is Hotch gonna let me do my damn job?" I asked, and he sat across me and sighed.

"No, you're put out for the rest of the case." He said, and I quickly looked over at him. Is he fucking serious?! He can't be fucking serious! "You lost your cool, especially on this weird facade you have about limb selling. They caught the guy who's been chopping up bodies, now they're just getting a confession. Look, Mallory, most of the time I would agree with you-"

"Oh, bullshit! You barley agree with me on anything, what the hell makes this any different?" I snapped while slamming my hands on the table, and he slightly jumped and sighed.

"Because, you're overlooking this! This isn't some fucking movie, where everything is over the top! We caught the guy, it is over." He snapped, and I just furrowed my eyebrows while looking at him.

"I don't believe that." I said, and he sighed while rubbing his face. "You know I'm right, Spencer. You have to believe me! This-This doesn't make-"

"I don't know what the hell is wrong with you, but get it together Mal. You're overthinking, that's what you do. You've done it for years, because your crazy. You are messed up in the head, because of god knows what. You always have been, so stop it." He snapped, then stood up and stormed off.

What they actual fuck is his problem?! What would compele him to say that?! Is that what he thinks of me? Some messed up in the head crazy person? Is he serious?

I quickly blinked my tears away, then took a deep breath. I knew I shouldn't have left Oakland, I should've stayed. Everything would still be good, everything would still be normal. But now, everything's just going down hill, and I don't know why.

I've done nothing but be helpful, done nothing but be there, and this is how he treats me?! I dropped my life for him! Twice! And this is how I get repaid, wow. People say love doesn't work twice, I should've believed them.

I looked and saw the team walking over, and I slightly rolled my eyes as I saw Spencer standing back with the Sheriff. "Mallory." Hotch said, then stuffed his hand in his pants. "You were right, he's selling the limbs. I'm sorry I doubted you, and I'm sorry I-"

"Save it Hotch." I said while standing up, then crossed my arms while looking at him. "Your only sorry because you didn't figure it out first. You didn't believe me, because you didn't think a woman could figure out something before you. Same goes for Derek, Rossi, and...and Spencer. So whatever else 'I'm sorry I' you're about to conjure up, I don't wanna hear it. Go catch that damn unsub, and leave me the hell out of everything." I said, then sat back down and looked at the table. "I also want my shit back."

"Yeah, of course." He said, then walked away with Derek and Rossi. I saw JJ and Kate still here, and I just looked at them. The hell do they want? They didn't believe me either.

"I'm sorry about how you was treated today, that wasn't fair. Especially with the way...Spencer talked to you. That definitely wasn't okay, and I'll definitely be talking-"

"I appreciate that JJ, but he spoke his truth. It's all I needed to hear, and now I know how he truly feels. You don't have to talk to him, because once we get back to Quantico we'll have a conversation. Then depending how to conversation goes, we'll see what kind of papers we'll be signing the next day." I said, then stood up and walked off.

That really fucking hurt, and I will not forgive him that easily.

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I sat down in front of the station, drinking coffee as I read the book in hand. I've already read this like twice, I just don't wanna go back inside yet. I looked over as the door opened, seeing Spencer walk out.

Great, he's gonna try and talk now.

"Catch em'?" I asked, looking back down at the book in hand as I slowly sipped the coffee. "Hm, sucks if you didn't." I shrugged, and he sighed and sat down next to me.

"We're close, I know that." He said, then looked over at me. "Mallory, I am so sorry about earlier. What I said wasn't true, and nothing will justify why I even said it. I was annoyed, tired, frustrated, and I took that out on you. I shouldn't have done that, I shouldn't have called you that. I could say sorry a million times, and I know you still wouldn't forgive me as easy. I know you're hurt, with not just me but the team. I didn't justify your feelings when I should have. I should've listened, but I didn't. And, you're right. I couldn't accept it, because I didn't believe someone else could come to that conclusion before me." He softly said, and I continued to stare at the book as tears flooded my vision.

"You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and sometimes I take you for granted when I shouldn't. Mallory, words can't express how much I love you, how much I cherish you, how much I care for you. I don't even have a scientific explanation on why I love you this much, and I have one for everything. Mallory I didn't marry you, just for the benefits. I married you, because at even that young of an age, I knew that if you weren't in my life it would never be as full as it is now. I saw you in my future, I saw you having our ki-" He quickly stopped himself, not wanting to finish that word. After years he can't talk about it, hell I can't either.

"I saw you, just you. It got to a point where I wasn't even thinking about a job, because you were in my mind too much. Mallory Mozell Espinosa, you are the love of my life. The light I keep chasing for, the light I never want to see dim. The look you gave me earlier, broke my heart so much. I wanted to drop the case, leave the BAU, and just stay by your side the rest of my life. Because I'll be damned if I ever make you look, or feel that way again. I love you sweet girl, I love you so much."

I looked down at the tears that covered the book page, and now I'm just a sobbing mess. This is what I mean when I say he's good with words, because holy crap it feels like I just got proposed too. I sat the book and coffee next to me, then wrapped my arms around a crying Spencer.

He stood up and held me tight, and I sniffled while gripping the back of his shirt. "I love you so much Spencie." I cried, and he slightly pulled away and held my cheeks.

"I love you way more then you can imagine love." He said, then softly kissed me while bringing me closer. I widely smiled in the kiss, and he smiled back while looking down at me. "I'm taking the day off, when we get back. So we can have that day we've been dying to have together." He said, and automatically my face lit up.

"Really?!" I happily said, and he nodded while smiling back at me. "Can we also go get a kitten?" I happily said, and he softly chuckled then pecked my lips.

"Whatever you want beautiful."

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