Me and Cris have been arguing constantly for the past week or so. When we see each other, we just greet each other and continue our days. I wanted nothing to do with him, the anger I was feeling rn could not be explained. "Hey, Y/n i was wondering if we could talk?" Cris said in a nervous voice. "Talk about what?" I said acting confused. "You know what " he said . " I can't Im busy" I said and started walking " busy with what?" He asked walking up to me "I have to go study in the library now" I said looking up at him. Oh I missed looking into his eyes and being in his warm arms. "Y/n I'm trying okay " he sighed. "Maybe.... we need a ......break Cris" I said slowly and he looked HURT " what?" He said with a dry voice and barely said the whole word. " no Y/n we are not taking a break , we are going to talk about this and work this out because I love you and i know you love me too and i will fight for us I just need you to meet me halfway." He said and his voice kept cracking which made me want to break down and cry the living shit out of me . " Cris-" he cut me off " no , no , no we're not giving up on us just like that. You complain that I'm always stubborn and never want to take accountability but i am now and all of a sudden you want a break that's unfair !" He said basically crying and raising his voice at me. I couldn't tell him the truth so i lied " i cheated on you." I said bluntly " what..." he said crying even harder. Oh God this is so hard to watch and now I was also full on crying hard. " I cheated Junior, i cheated on you" I put a huge emphasis on cheated and he looked broken. God I hated this so much. I felt more than terrible I wish I could just hug him and wipe away his tears but i know i can't. "I love him more, he's better than you , he's more caring and considerate. I've always loved him not you" I said while crying. This was all lies because Junior is the most caring, loving, considerate, generous guy I've ever been with and the only guy I've loved.
To be continued...
