My vent book 🥀 TW!

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In case you don't know 

I'm a huge fan of the show miraculous ladybug 

And I've been collecting the mystery kwamii figures 

The only one that I got a double for came with a monarch ring 

So I decided I was going to paint it till look like cat noir's ring. However the paint that I have if it's messed with too much it will come off. 

Show me grandma and papa have been trying to figure out a way to get it to stay like painting something over it. 

Grandma started saying something and I don't remember what she said specifically but she was scribing it and she paused for a few seconds before continuing. 

Whatever she poses for like 5 seconds I usually think she's done talking. 

So I asked her if she meant spray paint. 

And she snaps at me saying that is what she meant and that I should let her finish like she says that I'm always saying that they should do with me 

Because usually when I am in the middle of talking they interrupt me. 

I don't pause while talking unless I'm taking a deep breath because for some reason sometimes I say things in one breath. 

And so I start trying to say that when she stops like that it makes me think that she's done talking.

Then she tells me to stop and says and I quote 

"I don't know who you think you are. you think you're better than it everyone else. You are a disgusting person anymore"

THAT WAS NOT A TYPO SHE ACTUALLY SAID ANYMORE LIKE WHAT THE FUCK??

That drives me crazy. 

Then she started saying that she needs to talk to my mom as if saying it's her fault that I'm the way that I am even though I barely see her. 

Then I asked her what my mom has to do with this. And she says that she's going to need to talk to me about how I've been acting towards her. 

So that basically means she's going to be telling her the bad stuff about how I've been acting and not even explain why I've been acting this way or even letting me talk and defend myself because she will just say I am lying and making excuses. 

This hasn't happened yet but I have a feeling it will.

She literally brings misery to not only me but my mom and her papa.

So I feel like Mama will feel pressured into taking her side. 

And I'm not blaming her btw I love her .

And if you're wondering where Papa was this whole time he was outside taking the dogs to go to the bathroom before we headed to the other house. 

Another thing that sucks is that I was trying to whisper to Papa what grandma said but right as I started talking he says out loud "what?"

He talks very loudly so I had a heart attack hoping that grandma didn't hear him or acknowledge him 

Fortunately she didn't. 

Every time she does something like this I can actually feel my sanity drop.

I haven't spoken a word or made eye contact with her the rest of the night. 

I don't really have anyone to talk to except for my mom but again I don't see her very often. 

I do have a friend who understands what I'm going through but I haven't seen her in a while because a lot of things have been going on.

But you want to know the worst part? She said 

"My kids never acted as badly as you"

This is the second time she's done that. 

The first time was an absolutely stupid reason when I was correcting her on what sounds spiders make and she raised her voice which set off bears vibrating collar and she just glare that me through the mirror. 

So I said to her "don't you blame me for that." And she said that she will and that her kids never would have talked back to her because they had a lot more respect than I do. 

Two times she's asked me when have I started seeing her as the enemy. 

This is exactly why. And this is also why I don't like her touching me. 

It makes me feel disgusted. And when she notices me move away when she touches me she starts poking at me. 

This one feels a bit longer than the other so sorry about that. 

Anyways time for the meme. 

I made this so I hope you like it 🙂

That's all I have to say 

Bye! 🖤🖤🖤