"The Catalyst Of Love - Reigniting Passion"

Chapter 4

Ritvi POV :

I was trying to sleep but I was unable to, many thoughts were running in my mind about today as so many things happened like, Harshu bhai not showing up at last moment, Saru taking his place, sightseeing, road blocked, us being end up in this village, that old creepy man, this lady and her family. Some of it were nice and some were not

Now if I think of him Mr. Saras obviously, then while being alluring he seems like a gentleman too, but I don't know why, today with him....... I felt myself at ease like...... my mind wanna ask him numerous questions, push him away, but something inside me had faith in him that he won't do me wrong or any harm, that I am safe or maybe....... I am just again overthinking, Only a harmonic reaction, nothing more.

(After few hours (midnight))

I got up quietly, making sure they don't wake up I silently went on terrace as I was unable to sleep after stirring and overthinking for few hours

I sat on the terrace with my knees slightly bent and my arms loosely wrapped around it.I looked at sky and it was mesmerizing surely a sight to behold which soothes away every single ounce of your, making all your worries and tension flew away far.......I can sit here and gaze at these stars forever which are embedded  in this dark luminance sky, I don't even remember when was the last time I had some time to brace some peace for myself, even though I had got myself away from everything but in the process to forget everything and heal myself, I got so engrossed with work and studies that I didn't realised I have lost myself in it somewhere which longs to be back, however I do not think it will now, but it can not hurt to give myself a few quiet minutes to unwind.

I miss those old days when I was untainted from all these complex  emotions

I want to set myself free for a moment until I am here with Harshu bhai, badi ma, and Saru, with them I feel my old self is trying to come back, I feel happy for real when I am with them, I do not hate my family, I respect them as well, but with them I feel like I can be myself without worrying about being judged.

I should stop overthinking now, a single thought doesn't come in that I start making a whole Ram Katha out of it

While gazing at the sky, I began humming songs and eventually singing.

(Song - Yeh Raat Bheegi Bheegi (cover by Sanam and Aishwarya Majmudaar))

ये रात भीगी-भीगी, ये मस्त फिजायें
उठा धीरे-धीरे,वो चाँद प्यारा प्यारा
ये रात भीगी-भीगी, ये मस्त फिजायें
उठा धीरे-धीरे, वो चाँद प्यारा प्यारा
क्यूँ आग सी लगा के, गुमसुम हैं चांदनी
सोने भी नहीं देता, मौसम का ये इशारा

इठलाती हवा, नीलम सा गगन
कलियों पे ये बेहोशी की नमी
ऐसे में भी क्यूँ बेचैन हैं दिल
जीवन में ना जाने क्या हैं कमी
क्यूँ आग सी लगा के, गुमसुम हैं चांदनी
सोने भी नहीं देता, मौसम का ये इशारा
ये रात भीगी-भीगी, ये मस्त फिजायें
उठा धीरे-धीरे, वो चाँद प्यारा प्यारा

जो दिन के उजाले में ना मिला
दिल ढूंढें ऐसे सपने को
इस रात की जगमग में डूबी
मैं ढूंढ रही हूँ अपने को
ये रात भीगी-भीगी, ये मस्त फिजायें
उठा धीरे-धीरे, वो चाँद प्यारा प्यारा
क्यूँ आग सी लगा के, गुमसुम हैं चांदनी
सोने भी नहीं देता, मौसम का ये इशारा