𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐄 -JEY USO

32

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
IT WAS ALL A LIE

          Have you ever been sky diving? If not, there are two ways you can go. You take a 6 hour course on how to sky dive and voluntarily jump out of a plane.

Or, you get strapped to the instructor and they dive off with you and pull the lever for the parachute for you, so both of them float up and eventually land on the floor safetly.

Together.

The new diver in this instance puts a lot of trust in the instructor. They rely on them in that moment with everything they have and hope that they do everything perfect for both their safety.

Well in this case, Leanne was the new diver.

And Jey was the instructor.

She had strapped her heart to his, hoping he would keep it safe, protected so that when they start falling he'd pull the parachute and they float, and land safely.

Together.

But instead he cut her loose and watched her fall until she hit the floor, splat.

In the hotel room at about 1 in the morning, Jey watched Leanne's heart break inside her chest, her face slip into a disassociate state of disappointment and hurt.

She stayed completely still, like he'd  asked.

Not a word fell out her mouth, her body grew tense and her eyes glazed over.

He turned away.

He couldn't look at what he had done. He'd broken her heart and he didn't even have the guts to watch the aftermath.

He felt sick.

But the one who felt worse was Leanne.

Frozen in place, each breathe she took hurt, every beat of her fast paced heart hurt. Her eyes blurred over with salty tears that she loosely let fall down her face while she questioned her own sanity and well being on she'd deal with this.

She didn't know what to think, how to feel or what to do about any of it. She was stunned.

The man that she had started to fall for, dropped the biggest bomb of the century on her.

She looks at him, his head bowed down, slumped on the stool, a small sniffle came from him.

He was crying.

"Are you kidding me?" She asks her tone disconnected.

Jey's breath was heavy, the silence in the room allowed her to hear it.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" This time her voice was sharp.

With a clenched jaw she speaks again, "Jey look at me."

He didn't.

"You looked me in the eye when you fucked me, look me in the eye now." She wasn't asking, this was a demand.

And Jey knew it.

Forcing his head up, he makes eye contact with her.

"How much?"

"What?"

"How much money did you make?" Truthfully she had no idea why she was asking this. Money should be the last part of the conversation but seeing it was the sole reason he started dating her then she had a right to know.

"...I don't know." Jey mumbles.

Leanne scoffs, "you don't know? You make a bet on me and you don't even care to know how much you made from it. Am I that worthless to you?"

"No. You mean everything to me. After our date i knew I had to end off the bet so I did. I didn't wanna be with you, especially sleep with you knowing I could get money from it. It wasn't fair to you." Jey turns to her desperately getting his words out.

"Oh," she laughs bitterly, "thank you for having a conscience to know that what you did was wrong, it does be so much justice."

"Leanne please, I'm sorry I should've never done any of it."

"Yeah you're right you shouldn't have," she agrees, "but you know what I don't forgive you."

"Leanne-"

"No, because no one with any type of care for a person would ever do anything like this to them."

"No I care about you, I do, Leanne I lo-"

"Do not finish that sentence." She stops him. Her nose flared as anger settled in her chest masking her hurt. She didn't want to be patronized why words that are suppose to make the heart flutter and burst with joy.

This anger wasn't like the one she had last time Jey made her mad after his interruption. This time he didn't think the pink tint of her face flushed with anger was cute. That her nose being scrunched was adorable. This time he saw he anger for what it was.

Pure anger.

"I won't forgive you for this. I won't ever give you the time of day again." Leeanne's voice is cold, colder than the first time she told him to stay away, colder than any tone Jey had heard in his life.

And with every word she spoke with malice, another shot to the heart it was for him.

"I don't ever want you in my life again. If we didn't work for the same company I wouldn't give you the luxury to ever see me again. And I will never trust you again." Her eyes were cold and hard glaring back into his, she didn't cry, not even a tear as she said the words.

Jey was the opposite, his tears fell down his face, his eyes red looking back at her with a helpless expression but there was no sign of falter. In the split second, Leeanne's eyes that would stare at him with tenderness and warmth, shifted to coldness and sharpness that could cut through just about anything.

"Get out and never speak to me again." Leanne grits.

It was over.

Wordlessly, Jey got off his seat and walks to the door opening it. He steps out and as he turns around.

Slam!

He was met with the door. He leaned his head on it and let out a sob, "I'm so sorry Leanne."

On the other side, Leanne's lips wavered leaning her back on the door,  she listened at faint footsteps recede.

When it was gone she finally let out a sob. With one came out the other. Her legs grew weak and she slid down the door. Weeping. Crying. Sobbing. She poured her heart out with every tear. Sobs filled her room and her cries were uncontrollable.

She had held herself together, not wantinv to let him see her cry. But every word she spoke to him broke her heart into even more pieces than she thought was imaginable.

But it was necessary, we messed up. And Leanne didn't give second chances.

She hugged herself feeling disgusted, not with herself, but that only a few hours ago she had given the most sacred part of herself to him and now she knows it was all a lie.

Leanne was betrayed, she had opened up herself to him about things she hadn't told anyone, not even her own mother. He sat and comforted her while she cried about her lost child, he told her things that she had never heard from anyone before.

He made her feel appreciated, seen, heard. With Jey she finally felt like she had found someone that really understood her.

I guess I was wrong.

She had trusted him both physically and mentally and he threw it away for money.

Leanne was crushed by the thought, that  everything he did, everything he said.

All of it.

Was nothing but a lie.