Praying so much praying. Resorting to praying for god to help me with his work . My faith in him is what is left. If god is telling me something. I ask him questions in responce. Please would somone help me leaving. I dont know how I can . All I know is I need to . God please let me leave. Please forgive me . I pray I will be forgiven,I pray my girls will understand. Why wont he accept what I am trying to say. Won't even try to understand. I want to be with the one my heart yearns for. Even with him I do not know how he feels .
I know not to leave because of him ..it is not. Because I can't leave so easy is why I may lose him . Help god can't I have the one my heart yearns for. I know our marriage is not salvageable. Please let me love all over again. Please let me start a new road . Won't he let me go. I wish to go to the man I am now still in love with. I am not in a hurry. Though i crave for him to be by my side . That my heavenly father will be enough for me to . I dont even have the man I am in love with by my side anymore . I feel so alone , smiling just to carry on. Keep going dont stop . God help me please I dont want to hurt others . As a human I ask for blessings of happiness by starting over. I know god can help . Not once has my prayers been ignored. Many of disappointed times as of now . I have my faith. May god bless me. He won't listen to my words for me to leave in peace. God please give me strength.
