Vivid connections(short story series 3 parts)

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by Carter176219

by Carter176219

If there's a higher power up there please just take me now,I say leaning against the toilet
Half conscious while I gouze in pain I see a familiar object on top of a shelf In the bathroom
A rubber duck?

Thats the same rubber duck I use to play with as a kid kid I lost years ago till my my dad found it last year I miss him so much why did he have do that
Well I can't judge I'm in the same exact spot as him a year ago liek father like son right?
"Augggggg" I can't seem to trow up my body only reacting is to gag .

I guues it is better than trowing up I hate trowing up ever since I was a kid my dad used to trow up every night he was big drinker so is my mom
I hate the sound of it so much cause I heard it every.single.night I was never into drinking or any drug related activity so the only way I trew up was when I was sick or ate something bad.

Now that I think of it I should have done more with my life rather than just staying inside and studying and leaning about science I never understood stood wh..."AUGGGGGG" why
I never got out of my shell, when I was kid I was the same shy good grades well until this year
But everything was the same than till now and I absolutely hate that with a passion a burning passion I don't have much friends and I was fine with that for a while.

I'm not sure what changed well it's obviously my brain the human it does have silent connections
Holy hell even on the brink of death I'm pulling out science facts to absolutely no one to how incredible,I've always wondered why I talk to myself I think it just brings me covers my mom calls me crazy for it she always says that about the slightest inconveniences I do well she's definitely gonna think I'm crazy for this one.

I love my mom it's just that she doesn't know how to raise a kid she's there but not at the same time you know? She wants me to have a more *exciting life* well mom I'm sorry my life Dosent include going to the bar every single night and leave my kid alone to ultimately leading to SCENARIOS LIKE THIS

Yeah I'm definitely not shouting again that hurt a lot somehow I really should have studied more about the human body than about the universal existence, I'm not even to sure why I did this what I want to get out this attention? death? Well that's all I could think of maybe I want both never thought of that life is hard,"reeee" was that the door who's there?to be continued...