breaking apart

you dont play fair.

Maya's POV

Later on that day i decided to go for a walk.
It was 10:30pm and it was cold. I have no idea but i just wanted to go outside and think about stuff.
I grabbed my leather jacket and put my hair in a high pony tail and headed out the door.

A few minutes later i found a park near of Starbucks.
I walked over to the swings and sit in one of them. They were cold. But for once i did not cared.
I started swinging back and forth just thinking about lucas and Riley.
Lucas can't love me. I would not let him. And Riley? Well Riley is Riley. I hope she doesn't change. She has hope for things that are way out of her own reach. She even has hope for me.
I realize that over a few days I've learn to like lucas. At first i didn't knew how I felt about him so i just pushed aside. But now it's different. If i love them, then they will always leave. Im used to it.
Im afraid that if i love him then he will break my heart and smashed into millions of pieces.
My friends don't know how many times people leaves on me. Nobody could fix a broken girl.
And even if they did, they will eventually try to break you all over again.
And the hard part is getting back up again and starting over. Knowing that someday it will happen again.
I suddenly started crying. I never let myself cry over things like this. But now it was pretty hard to ignore them. While i was crying i felt rain drops in my hand. Then i looked up and rain started to fall really fast. "Could this get any worst?!" I said screaming.
A few moments later i was a mess. My mascara was ruined, and my hair was completely wet, and so was my clothes. The rain was cold. But i did not wanted to leave yet.
"Why does the bad stuff always happens to me!" I screamed out loud.
The rain was going full speed. I heard a thunder and i gasped.
"That's where you're wrong maya." Somebody said behind me. I turned to see the last person i was expecting. Lucas.
"Lucas?" I said sobbing.
"The one and only." He said.