ali...
"ali let me talk to you real fast " my sister said in my doorway as i was doing my hair i paused to see what she wanted
since we was leaving today i had everything packed
"i wanna ask u sum and i want u you to be truthful okay" she said wiping her face
my heart was pounding i hope she didn't find out i was cutting myself nobody knew not even my mom if we being honest she was the reason
"are u cutting yourself ali"
"..."
" ali please talk to me "
"yes lone i was i don't do it anymore i promise " i said trying to stop talking about it
" im so so sorry ali i im sorry u had to go through this alone the pain and suffering im so sorry i couldn't be there more" she cried hugging me
"its fine its fine i promise i'll never do it again im sorry " i hugged her back me and my sister always had a good relationship
i loved her like no other i hated to see anyone i loved like dis i just wish i wasn't this way hurt suffering wishing i was good enough
i saw my mom walk in i wanted to talk to her so i was hoping she would be open to me and take me seriously enough
"i'm finna go try to talk to mama before we leave okay" i rubbed her back she nodded walking to the back i walked upstairs to my mom room
praying this would work in my favor i knocked and went in
"hey mom can i talk to u" i said getting nervous
"yea come sit " she pointed to the chair
i sat down trying to push the words out
"mom why do act like dis way to me like i don't matter to you, idk what i did you dismiss me every time i wanna speak up but u act like u don't care "
she scrunched her face up "girl im not finna play witchu i do care about u you constantly talk back u wanna try to hard to be grown and wanna be seen" she shrugged her shoulders
"but how i don't do anything i always respect u but u act like u can't do the same for me mom i love u but u acting like u don't " i said
"ali i don't have time for this u making this up like u going crazy im about to send u back" she said laughing
"im not making anything u- ykw mom don't even worry about it this conversation is pointless u dnt see where i be coming from so it doesn't even matter " i said leaving
my mom had put me in a mental hospital because she thought i was crazy and how i was delusional,making things up when i told her that her bfn was touching me
she told me i was crazy and how a grown man could never touch a kid and she said maybe if i stopped wearing revealing clothes i wouldn't have to worry
it fucked me up so bad i just wish she stopped treating me like dis she say she care bt didn't believe her own
when she told her a man was touching her she says she saying im making things up but all i want is just to be heard thats it
all my stuff was out my room me and my sister was just finna walk out the door when my mom came running downstairs
"she truly makes my head hurt" my sister mumbled
"ali where issu going and where issu taking her i pacifically told u she was not going anywhere with u" she grabbed my arm
