Anliee Bre'Asia Cooks
February 25th
2:35 pm
i was getting my tea and things ready so i could lay down due to my period cramps. as i was fixing my tea i seen my light up on the counter beside me.
before reaching for it i have my green tea a good stir before closing the wood cap and sticking my straw inside. i got my phone and seen it was a text from a random number.
448-234-9012
call me i just wanna talk
i mentally rolled my eyes knowing who this text was from. i got my phone and my tea in my other hand walking towards the sofa.
i got comfortable on the sofa and spread out my cover over my body and pressed play and continued watching ginny and georgia.
448-234-9012
one missed call
rashad been pressing for me to talk to him and hear him out but i felt mentally drained. i put my trust in him just for him to disappoint me in the long run. i was over it.
part of me did want to hear what he had to say but i was so tired of getting did dirty i just let my silence speak for me.
maybe it won't hurt to call?
i paused the tv and went to my call long calling back the unsaved number.
"here we go.." i mumbled to myself
on the second ring the call answered making me shake my head.
"hello?" rashad said
"yes rashad." i sighed.
"i been trying to talk to you but you been giving me the cold shoulder." he said
"out of all people you should know i use my silence as a answer." i said before sipping my tea.
"i know, but i just wanna talk to you. maybe we can go get sum to eat?" he said
"everything you wanna say in person, you can say over the phone." i said
"anilee please." he said
i rolled my eyes
"i guess but please respect me and not make this something it's not." i said
"you got my word. on my granny."
"yea whatever." i said before hanging up.
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i sat down in a booth looking at the menu seeing what i've may have wanted. i wasn't necessarily hungry due to the fact i'm not ready for this conversation.
"hello, im your waiter for today. i will start you off with your drink." she said clicking her pen
"a water would be fine." i said
"okay, i'll be right back." she said with a soft smile before walking away.
shortly after left i got on my phone debating if i wanted to go or stay.
just go
"yea you right." i mumbled to myself
i went inside my purse and grabbed a ten dollar bill to leave.
right as a i look up i see rashad walking in.
"what the fuck."i said to myself.
he locked eyes with me and made a small smile. i kept an straight but not so mean type of face.
he walked up towards the table sitting in front of me. as he took a seat i inherited his scent. he smelled like the cologne i had gotten him and a mix of weed.
kinda missed that smell.
"hey anilee." rashad spoke as he sat down at the table.
"hi." i said adjusting in my seat.
"how you been?" he asked
"besides getting beat the hell out of? mm im good." i said
"about that...that ain't have shit to do with me. you knowing i wouldn't even play bout you on bad terms." rashad said
sound like bullshit
"you don't believe me? every since i heard that sum shit like i that i've been looking for who did sum creep shit like that. you didn't deserve that." he said not breaking eye contact.
"part of me want to believe you but i can't rashad. i lost all trust for you since i found what i found. then to make shit worse you literally got what you wanted from me and you just went radio silent. then when i started to accept the fact you did me dirty you wanna come back. this not that rashad and you know that. i thought we had some what of an understanding about communication from that night in cali."
"but yet you proved me right why i feel like i can't open up and trust nobody. then you didn't have to lie to me. at all. i could care less what you do but the way you went about it was just lame as fuck." i said feeling tears form in my eyes
"i understand where you coming from, just let me show you instead of telling you."rashad said
"i have to give it some thought rashad , i just don't wanna put myself in the same predicament." i said
"understood, it was good seeing you tho." rashad said
"same to you" she said getting her things and left
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wellll i been writing ts for over TWO WEEKS
im so sorryyyy for my inconsistency but a bitch back on some real shit
i been busy w school and thats soo draining.
see yal tmr!
-xoxo ziah
