Give me your forever

Chapter one Freen's pov

We were just starting to film the loyal pin serie when it all happened. Becky and I always had a special bond. We've known each other since she was what? 17-18 years old? I saw her grew up and become the woman that she is now, but in the past year something had changed. I started dating this guy and it went bad with Becky. I knew that she would respect my boundaries and distance herself a bit during the events for the promotion of Uranus 2324 but what I didn't know, is that it would be so bad.

There was this event that we did, the interviewer had asked us to tell the other what we thought of her. Becky had poured her heart out. Saying that she loved me, wished me the best and was proud of me. That she'd always be by my side no matter my choices in life. I knew that Seng would be mad about it and would cause a scene so I couldn't let myself answer her... I wanted to say a lot of things to Becky, she was everything but I just couldn't. I had already so much problems with the fans because of my relationship, I didn't wish for Becky to be dragged into this just because I had made a declaration. Plus, Seng would be mad and he would put everything on Becky's back, just like he always did. I didn't say anything and just left. Becky was still standing there, astonished that I didn't say anything, but then, she started crying. It was horrible... Seeing her cry had always made my heart aches, but knowing that I was the reason she was in that state killed me from the inside. I just rushed back where I was standing a few seconds ago and took her hand, dragging her backstages to our lodge. I just took her in my arms and hugged her tight. Letting her cry on my shoulders as I tried to shush her.

-Why? She simply asked me.

-Nong Bec you know how Seng is... If I had said something he would have put it on you again and I'm tired of him making you the bad guy.

-Then why do you fucking stay with him? I know you Sarocha. You're not yourself with him. You're not this goofy girl that I know and love. Since you're with him, it's like you block yourself from being you with me and our friends and fans because it will make him mad.

-Using my first name huh? I said. You're that mad?

-Yes, I'm fucking mad Freen! I just poured my heart out for you, and you did what? You left me there like an idiot!

I didn't know what to say at the time... Since the day when she almost drowned, I was so scared of losing her and today felt like it so I froze. My body, my brain, everything was frozen and I didn't know what to do to make her stay.

-Fucking say something Sarocha! She cried. What... What do you want from me!

-I can't Rebecca! I fucking can't because I don't fucking know! I just... I can't lose you.

The features on her face softens as she looked at me.

-Freen look at me.

As I refused, she help up my chin, making me look into her eyes.

-Freen you won't lose me. Not ever, I promise you that I'll always be by your side. Just stop breaking my heart...

-I'm sorry Nong... So sorry.

-It's okay Phi. I'm not mad anymore.

-I love you Becbec.

-I do too Bunny. More than you know.

Now, many months later, we had started to get close again. Seng and I had split up. He couldn't bare the drama anymore, and my secret didn't help at all. You're probably asking yourself what's my secret well I'll tell you. I'm pregnant. Nobody knew except mom and Seng, but he didn't want anything to do with this baby. Wanting me to get rid of it, but I couldn't. It was a part of me. Mom was so supportive on the other hand, excited to be a grandma soon. She did everything to help me hide it. Becky was supicious of something, but she thought that what I was hiding was the pain I really felt toward Seng and our breakup. Truth is, I didn't feel any pain. How could he leave his kid? And could anyone expect from me to be sad when he was a fucking coward who abandoned his kid? But Becky didn't know what he did. No one knew.