it's been a while since i've wrote on here but i shit you not 2024 was a rollercoaster of emotional damage and self deprivation and just fucked up unfortunate series of events.
i've gone through A. LOT. this year, and thank god i wasn't like "2024 is gonna be my year!!!¡!!" cuz it most definitely wasn't LMAO
let me tell you what the fuck happened
so november of last year i broke my foot and had to go into surgery, and i was like well what a damn start to a new year but hey it's all good... NOT! my foot is still fucked and i have something that's called diabetic charcot foot.
anyways the first few months were uneventful after that, i've had ups and downs but nothing too major.
then, the worst thing in may happened, me and my bestest best friend who i considered a sister, that i've know for 10+ years, have broken up and we stopped talking, over something so stupid and it hurt knowing that she just dropped me over it like i meant nothing to her.
then the same week, i've lost my job that i absolutely loved and enjoyed and broke up with my gf for GOOD!!
it took a toll on me and i went into the longest depression episode i've ever went to because it lasted a couple of months.
all of that and some more minor stressful situations with my family happened and it all finally got to me on the first day of august, i got hospitalized in the ICU for 11 days, which was the longest i've ever been hospitalized, i don't think ill get into details of what happened but ill share them if that's something you wanna know about.
after getting out of the hospital, it was really laying heavy on my shoulders and it was just too much for me, i've gotten so depressed and september went by for me in a blur, i can't even remember what i did and how i survived it, the whole world just seemed to go against me and i didn't think that i would ever be happy or at least content with my life.
however, october came by and i decided to just turn all of that upside down, i've decided that i no longer wanted to be this gloomy and upset and depressed person that i was, and so i started october with a positive outlook to the world and i've been doing better ever since.
i've learned to not hold onto people so tightly and to let go, my therapist told me that im the only consistent person in my life and the only person that's truly is gonna stick by my side, everyone is just an ADDITION to my life and not something vital that i need to live properly, and ever since she told me that, i've started living life that way and i found that that caused way less stress and attachment in my life, im so grateful for her because i wouldn't have changed my perspective if it wasn't for her and her encouraging words.
on october 8th, i turned 22 and man, this just feels different, a positive different, and i hope it all looks up from here on then.
here's some pics i took of my birthday look
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okay well it's only letting me upload one picture and no vids so that sucks, but if you wanna see more u can always add my ig (it's in my bio) and i could show u
oh and i've gotten way better at doing my make up and i've don't multiple make up looks that im proud of this year (i could also show u if you like but on ig)
anyways, i hope 22 treats me way better and more gentler than 21 did
and i hope 2025 treats all of us a hell lot better because on GOD we deserve it
so, enough about me, tell me, how are you guys doing and how was your year?
i love you all, take care and let don't hesitate to talk to me about anything u need, i'm always here
okay well, until next time loves, whenever that is
