The Way it Feels💓

Again

"How does it taste?" Tshoki asked, eyeing my plate as she picked salad to avoid bloating during the movie. I felt a twinge of pity. We were having breakfast in the hotel restaurant, and I was enjoying fried rice with chili sauce. "It tastes good," I said, smiling at her. She gulped and took another angry bite of her salad.

"Hey, do you want an egg?" Tenzin asked as he came over, knowing I loved them. I nodded, and he placed an egg on my plate.

"Do you share food?" Tshoki asked, surprised.

"We do, she likes egg and I don't," Tenzin replied in his usual goofy tone.

"I wish I was eating that food," she said in low voice, sounding disappointed. I grinned; it was clear she had a soft spot for Tenzin.

I glanced at Tenzin; he seemed unbothered. Boys could be so clueless. But something caught my eye—he was wearing a different coat, despite telling Gyeltshen he only had one. "You have a ther coat?" I asked Tenzin. He looked at me and said, "Yes, I brought three coats; I heard it's freezing here," before going back to his food. *Did Gyeltshen lie to me?* I thought to myself.

I should have known Tenzin would never say that, but I had believed Gyeltshen.*Was he jealous? We're talking about Gyeltshen—why would he be jealous?* I thought to myself. I decided to let it go; I didn't want to waste my precious brainpower on something so trivial.

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After a while, the entire cast began their makeup, while the crew set everything up. The cameras were all ready. What I always loved about SE-SHAY was the crew; they always did their work so efficiently and organized. The location was Doldam High School, and it stirred a wave of nostalgia within me. Memories rushed back, bittersweet and vivid, filling me with a mix of longing and reflection. I felt an urge to run from this place, yet here I was, unable to deny the pull of fate. It was as if God had woven my path into this moment, and I couldn't escape the weight of it all.

We made a contract with the school to let the drama be filmed here, and they agreed. Many schoolgirls were present, giggling and whispering among themselves, adding a lively energy to the atmosphere. The main reason for the noise was Gyeltshen and Wangchuk. "Girls, can you please lower the volume?" I said with a smile, though inside I just wanted them to hush. They shot me dirty looks, and I felt like the class captain controlling the class, even though I was just a writer. I had to keep an eye on things for the director, and if Tenzin weren't here, I might have just quit.

I made my way around to each cast member, the camera crew, and all the staff involved to ensure everything was running smoothly. If not, the director would definitely chew me out. I still couldn't understand why the director had given me such a huge responsibility.

"Wow!" the girls screamed, jolting me from my thoughts. I hurried over to see what was happening, only to find the main cast on set. I stood frozen, heart racing, as I took in the sight of Gyeltshen, Wangchuk, and Tshoki in their school uniforms. A rush of nostalgia hit me, and my heart ached at the sight of Gyeltshen in that uniform—it stirred memories I had tried to forget. He was searching for something, but when he caught sight of me, he paused, and his smile spread slowly across his face. In that moment, my heart fluttered, torn between joy and longing.

What if we were given the chance to go back to the past? Would our story change? No, it wouldn't. We were from different worlds, and even if we had somehow found a way to fit into each other's lives, the core of who we were would remain unchanged. I slowly turned away from them, each step reminding me of everything I had tried to ignore. How stupid I had been? The weight of my feelings settled heavily on my heart.