When I met you, Everything changed.

Prologue

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Prelude

Ako si Luna, isang hopeless romantic, NBSB girlie, at curious kung ano nga ba ang tunay na pagmamahal.

Ano nga ba ang love?

How does it feel when someone reciprocates your feelings?
Someone who's there to cheer you up.

Bakit di pa ako nakakaranas ng ganyan?

Hindi ko maiwasang kwestionin kung ano ang kulang.

Kung wala ba talagang may gusto sa akin.

But how come no one wants me?
I excel academically naman, I'm tall, maganda? long hair, maputi, always clean, and I know how to dress well-mostly in tita outfits pa-yet no one seems interested.

Am I intimidating?
Bakit? Is it because of my glasses?
May problem ba sa glasses ko?
Need ko na ba mag switch ng contact lenses in college?

Baka naman may mali sa akin, o sadyang hindi pa talaga ito ang tamang oras na ipinaglaan saakin ng Dios.

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Laging naguguluhan kung ano ang kulang, ngunit ang puso ko'y patuloy pa ring umaasa. Umaasang balang araw ay mararanasan ko rin ang tunay na pagmamahal.

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My mind is in turmoil. I find myself questioning so many things, and minsan nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa o hope sa love, thinking na baka wala talagang may gusto saakin.

I'm turning college next year and still completely unaware of anything about love.

But despite my intriguing thoughts of having someone to love, I wonder about my parents' permission.

"will they allow it?"

"Maybe?...Maybe not?" I ask myself.

"Baka di pa talaga nila ako papayagan. I'm still in senior high, and sabi nila, maraming lalaki pa ang dadating. I'll just wait for the right one to come, yung sigurado na talaga," I said.
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Still 17... If I turn 18, will they allow me to have one?

My parents can be really strict when it comes to love. They often remind me to focus on my studies first. They always say things like, "Bata ka pa, you're too young to experience those things," or "Unahin muna ang studies, ha." Then there's the classic: "Dadating ang tamang oras, anak. God will give you someone you truly deserve, yung hindi ka sasaktan." And I believed them—I really did. There will be a time when fate will find a way to bring two souls together.
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Pero, ang hirap. And hirap maging curious sa isang bagay, lalo na sa love, mas mabuti pa siguro yung may experience, like 'puppy love' o 'high school love' man lang, so I won’t be too clueless when the right time finally comes.
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Buti pa nga yung mga Grade 10, nakaka-experience na. Eh, ako? Magka-college na, pero wala pa rin. Ano to, nganga?
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Sometimes, I feel like they don’t understand that having someone special could even motivate me to excel more. I wonder if I could ever have an honest conversation with them about love. Maybe if I show them how responsible I am, they’ll change their minds.

But what if they don’t?

What if I stay stuck in this cycle—wanting to experience love but feeling held back?

It’s a constant battle between my desires and my parents’ expectations, and I can’t help but feel lost in it all.

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