The Secret Life

The secret life of misfits

Episode:5

I went to see him like I was bored. I took leave that day and told my mother that it would be night to return. I didn't have to wait there today. Udas was already sitting there today. He looked at me with fascinated eyes after realizing my presence. I ignored her stare and sat next to her. Today, there is no packet between us, there is no distance, if it is more, there is a difference of ten fingers. From so close, it seemed that the sound of his heartbeat was beating louder than my heartbeat. There was no word in anyone's mouth, only the eyes of the two were tied to some flowers. When I realized that he might not say anything further today, I opened my mouth.

"I had something to tell you."

"Hmm, listen, I also have something to say."

"Then you tell me first."

"I will, but not now."

"So…?"

"I will make a request."

"say yes"

"Give me from this afternoon till eight o'clock."

Then Udas looked at his watch and said the time.

“Now 4.1 then I want only 5 hours, please give it?”

His sudden request like that somehow stuck in my chest. i said

"Okay."

"Then inform the house."

"I came home saying, it will be night to return."

"Did you know I'd say something like that."

"No."

"So?"

"I don't know why I think it might be night to go home today."

"Well then, let's not waste the time we have."

Then we left the park and took a rickshaw. Both are sitting side by side very close. But no one said anything. What is the reason why I can't find words? So I opened my mouth again.

"Shut up, don't say anything?"

"Many things had to be said, have to be said. But nature gave time and where."

"I mean!"

"No not much, let's take you to a place of my choice today."

After about a quarter of an hour we got down in front of a restaurant. I saw a restaurant called Chinese Haven. Then he took my hand and led me inside. I was very surprised when I entered. Symbols of beauty are touched throughout the restaurant. It is clear that an ordinary girl like me cannot afford to come here, seeing every corner of the restaurant. Udas went to a table and sat with me. Then called a waiter and ordered two coffees.

After five minutes the coffee came. He sipped the coffee mug one by one. And I looked at the sight of him drinking coffee. Bored to see me looking like that, he said,

"Drink the coffee without looking at me, or the coffee will get cold."

Hearing his words, I hurriedly put the coffee in my mouth and burned my lips. Seeing such a sight of mine, he said,

“I'm jealous of that coffee. He has the right to touch you and hurt you, but I don't have the right to love you."

I heard his words and looked left and right and tried to avoid the words. I finished the coffee and left the restaurant.

"Now name a place you like."

"Mine?"

“Um, yours.”

"Will you go?"

"Why not."

"Well, then let's go to my college."

"Your college means BAL college?"

“Hmm.”

"Surely Bakul will go downstairs."

"I laughed a little after listening to Bakul Tala on his face. He smiled back at me."

Then I went to college by rickshaw from there. Now the college is closed, since it is a government college, you can enter at any time. And inside the hostel is more accessible for him. Both of us walked and went to the basement floor. As he sat there he began to speak.

"You know, love was like a disease to me. Which should never be allowed to touch the body. This is what I have thought for so many years. But the day I saw you in the shop for the first time, I also know why I felt that I was also a little affected by this disease called love. But who knew that once affected by this disease, the mind will die as well as the body. My dream was to address my sweetheart as you until I get married. Go to Basar night and call her first wife and then you will call her. That's why I didn't call you you. But I know why you want to tell me from you. My parents have always given me the best. From the best school to the best college, and for these best subjects I got the best job. They have given all the best of their life to me, so they want to give the best life partner too. But I failed to convince them. They forget to look at shiny diamond, black diamond does not shine, but it is the most expensive and best diamond. But the eyes of the parents are fixed on the white diamond so…”

"I don't want to marry you either, Udas."

Maybe Udas didn't understand that I would say such a thing. So he looked at me with fal fal eyes. “It is better not to talk about this matter. I know you also know that dragging out this relationship means letting down both parents."

Then we both remained silent! Trying to understand the situation of both. We are both stuck in one trouble, one place, one situation. Both of us are trying to understand how deep the heart fire is. After a while I stood up and said.
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"Now we should get up Udas"

I looked away as Udas looked at me bored. I tried to hold myself hard enough. Bored eyes are very red, maybe like the sky! As the sky is covered with clouds before the rain falls. At this moment Udas eye condition is just like that. As I started to walk away from his gaze, Udas called from behind.

"Rabeya, hug once?"

Udas was left to say but I was not left to jump on his chest.

Why did Udas come to my life as a guest for a few days? Why make this random life even more random. It was very necessary to do so. You should have understood that the moon fits you in the sky and not on the ground. Why did you fall into the land of my heart by mistake, when you dream, why are you bored?

Udas gave two drops of tears in reply. That went down my back. But the two drops of cold tears in his eyes were like acid, burning as much as they rolled.

I left him and ran out into the street. Didn't look back, didn't look back, didn't try to see or understand Udas position. That day was the last time I saw him. I never contacted anyone again. I had to save his number in my phone. No I didn't call him and he called me. We have not blacklisted anyone's number. We could communicate if we wanted to, but it was incompatible to force communication where our natures separated us.

I also endured the pain of getting bored. Because I'm a girl. We have to do everything thinking about everyone. Again I focused on work, education, everything. everything became normal as before. In between, connections started coming for me from many places. Poor father's pretty girls are a bit more in demand. Because they don't have the strength of family, nor the strength of money. Another year went by like this. My orna is complete. I got good results, so I started giving job interviews in government and private institutions. But getting a job and word of mouth? Sometimes big people are needed sometimes big money. But I have nothing. So wherever I gave a job interview, the chance of getting a job was 25%. One day I gave a job interview in a government organization, the chance of getting a job there was 44% more than before. So I returned home with a chest of hope. But I couldn't imagine what I would see back home.

To be continued...