Not So Final Thoughts On The Fandom.

Back yet again.

It's 4am, and I'm in yet again another of my depressive stupors. While trying to convince myself that I'm still young, and not at all growing up. So I'm back yet again for my yearly ramble dump.

So, I'm about to start college soon (Well, community, cause I'm broke.) And I am yet to move on from this childhood phase. So I've decided to embrace cringe, and just let nature take it's course. God let me discover YHS at the ripe age of nine while on my mother's phone, and now he will watch as I reap the consequences of that action.

I've started chronicling YHS and it's events during my free time. With the purpose of turning it into an essay video, as a love letter to this series. Will my motivation continue to flow until I finish it? Who knows, probably not. But only time will tell.

So far I've made a time line up to Episode 17 of Season 1.

I've been working on my art skills, and while I'm nowhere near where I would want to be. I think I want to start posting fan art. I will probably never go back to my old YouTube video formats, but maybe I can drop a few short animatics every blue moon.

For the main part, I want to start writing fan fiction. I wrote a lot as a child, I still have the drafts! And they're absolutely horrendous, as you would expect of a preteen.

Some snippets include of that era include:

-Omegaverse YHS. With no specific pairing, and no men got pregnant so what was the point. I won't explain the premise, unless someone was actually interested in knowing. Admitting this much was already embarrassing enough.

-Alec x Elijah, lots of it. No idea why, but upon research, I would come to discover I am not the only one, why made me very happy. I soon plan on writing fanfics, and these two will definitely show up as a pairing at some point.

-Alec, Evan, Kyran, and Kai being college roommates. With Alec's theorized baby sibling living with them. This one was the closest to being posted, but now it never actually will.

-That Evlec Amnesia fanfic I posted on here before taking it down. That one was actually supposed to be Alec x Kyran, but it was the Evlec Era, so I just replaced Kyran's name with Evan's.

There were probably more, but I can't remember, even though I still have all the drafts, I just refuse to go back.

I've been working on some character pixel art sprites for the video essay I mentioned earlier. Even though the art isn't of that high quality, I'll post it on here, since any shame this fandom had died a long time ago.

Valerie's is really bothering me, but it's a beta design for a reason. I'm going to have to go back to that one at some point. Liv a little too, but I think it's just the expression.

I'm working on a James beta sprite at the moment, but he's kind of been put in the gutter for now.

I am really hoping my motivation for this project continues, but I can feel it slowly wavering. As I went through Season 1, I discovered not much happened, making me wonder if I can even make an interesting video essay with YHS.

Then again, this would be for me and the fans, not anyone else. So I'm forcing myself to bite the bullet and continue.

I have really been planning this out. Even though my summer job at Jack N' The Box didn't pay that well, I have enough money to hire some cheap voice actors on Fiverr. I'll start thinking on actually contacting a few when I become employed again. As I can't really sacrifice financial stability for a project that may never come to fruition.

Customer Service jobs made me realize why Alec chose to kill dogs and dispose of dead girls instead.

I might contact other YHS creators in the future, but that's for the far future, when I've actually started inputting everything into a coherant script.

Wish me luck as I delve back into this dead fandom, and hopefully heal my inner child while I'm at it.

I would say expect something from me in the future, but I am very lazy. So who knows. I want to create fan works, but what I am unsure of yet.

Take care, and remember, Cringe Culture is dead.