Re:Zero Yarinaoshi - Rewriting the Past

Impossible is Just a Word

I had a dream.

I don't know exactly what it was about, but I felt my chest hurt the more time passed inside the dream. It was strange, I don't remember having these memories, but something inside me repeated the words "Missing" like an endless cycle.

I'm a terrible person, but at the same time I feel like I'm incredible. It's strange, I keep blaming myself for things I don't even know if I actually did, and praising myself for doing something I don't remember. These new memories, flowing inside my mind, are driving me crazy, but I'm still fine...

Who am I? What did I do?

I can't say, I'm still lost in something incomprehensible.

Maybe I can't get the answer I want right now, but I hope that maybe I can take the first step towards finding out who I really was, who I am, who I will be...

Who are you, Subaru Natsuki?

And who are you, "Subaru Natsuki"?

Who is Subaru Natsuki?

Still no answers, I closed my eyes and waited.

I don't want to lose who I am, but I also don't want to lose who I was.

However, at this moment, I am in charge, and I will not let these memories take over my decisions.

A half-elf, a survivor, someone who managed to endure years of being frozen. That's the person I am - someone who doesn't remember their parents, someone who had no friends until now.

A person who is alive. That's what I am.

And that's what I will be, unlike those memories. I did not die and I will not die.

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Quiet in his corner, Subaru continued to take brief glances at Emilia, who seemed to gradually become irritated by this action.

It hadn't been long since they left on their trip and Subaru was still amazed at how fast a carriage pulled by an animal like a dragon could be. Indeed, a fantasy world is something completely unthinkable for someone who lives in the normal world.

Observing Emilia when she tried to organize her thoughts about him, the boy showed a small smile, using his memories to warm his heart.

The woman was really beautiful, but she kept her appearance discreet. Maybe it was just the old feelings in his chest, but Subaru's heart warmed as he watched her. It was strange, but the boy felt that she would be prettier if she left her hair long.

With no subject to look for, he continued to observe the landscape outside. He hadn't even said a word to the maid who was driving the carriage, and at no point did he open a conversation to decide his future with Emilia. Apparently, it was better to maintain this apathetic silence until the end of the journey, at least there, at their destination, the discussion would be calmer.

From what Subaru heard, in addition to becoming an accepted candidate for the royal contest, he would also have someone on his side, a knight of sorts, like that man, Julius, was to Miss Anastasia. The half-elf couldn't imagine in a situation where a woman like Emilia would fit in as his knight, perhaps the opposite could happen, but Subaru shook his head, and just accepted the moment.

He still felt a pulse in his hand, something he obtained after using that strange ability that involves him for the second time. Before, everything happened naturally, even when he was traveling with Anastasia - now, he heard a kind of click before actually activating your ability.