Kalli's poems

Why

Love

A feeling desired

A feeling avoided

Late night calls

Late nights texts

Skipping out on friends

Putting you first

I thought i could be strong

I thought i could save you

I wanted to be strong

I wanted to save you

Carrying the weight of your pain

Your grief

A love fought with everything

Like a diseased flower

A sickness spread to me

A sickness to the stomach

A sickness to the mind

Overstress

Disappointment

Previous scars barely closed

Starting to open

A glass mind

Cracking

Slowly

Ready to shatter

Confusing venom for care

Dependency for love

I began to hate myself

Feelings of sickness when you called

Anxiety when you messaged

Why

Maybe selfishness

Maybe fear

I still don't know

But i began to let go

A pain grew

i knew what was best

I thought

I let you go

Expecting to heal

But hear i sit

A pain refusing to leave

Missing

Yearning

Loving

why