Life Series OneShots

Leave the Discussion for Later, Scarian

A / N

yeah, so uh, this is smut. set in third life specifically. 

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Being red hasn't been particularly easy. I've felt different, like I need to kill or do things recklessly. It's twisted, I feel like when people reach their last life, they should feel obliged to keep themself safer and be less idiotic, whoever runs this server must have set it up for us to lose our minds on our red lives. Things must be more entertaining that way.

Navigating these feelings have made for a new experience. Although my friend is a green life, it's almost like he's the bloodthirsty one. I must say, it is fun going insane with him; All I can think about sometimes is what he will be like on his red life. Even though I know Grian will leave me once he has lost a life, I would like to have some time with him while he isn't in his right mind. Although, when he blew up three people the other day for me, I questioned if he was fully sane. He's not, he can't be. But why do I find that attractive?

Something worth thinking about is how lately I've felt more attracted to Grian, and, well, to put it bluntly, like I need him. And not in a platonic way. No, way more than platonically, something even more than romance even. If whoever made this server really made it so we become h**rny on our red lives, then I'm a little curious on what they think about on a daily basis. Well, it's not really time to dwell on the possibilities of the overlords, right now I'm doing something... important.

To be honest, I'm a little nervous on how Grian will react when he comes back, and I ask him for something a little more than anything we have ever done or even talked about. What if he gets weirded out by me? I mean, I don't think he will, he's been staring at me whenever I take off my shirt to cool down. But what if that's just judgement? I have to try though; this feeling has been hard to ignore and if I don't get another person's help soon, I don't know how insane that will drive me.

When I finished making our bed (yes, we sleep in the same bed) I sat down on the floor and waited. I couldn't help but imagine scenarios in my mind where Grian was unbuckling my belt and kissing me. I wonder if that'll come true. Then, the door creaked open, I guess I'll find out.

"Hey, Scar," Grian greeted. He was dripping in sweat from the desert heat, he'd been out for the last half hour upping our defenses. Well, he only did because I told him to leave the house for a bit so I could get him a surprise. "So, what is this 'top secrete surprise that I'll never guess what it is?'" He asked, trying to shake off the sand clinging onto his clothes and hair.

It was hard not to get up and kiss him with how cute he looked right now, but I need to wait, to tell him awkwardly about the red life thing I've discovered. This is going to be so embarrassing. "Hello, Gri! Come, come." I said, standing up from the ground. I grabbed his hand and walked him over to the bed to sit with him. "So, well, this is embarrassing, but there's something I want to talk to you about me being red." I started.

"Hm? What is it?" Grian asked, tilting his head at me. Before I could continue talking Grian put a hand on my thigh, causing me to blush.

"Well- since I've been red, I've been feeling more feelings... Ones like a thirst for blood, something that makes sense," I continued purposefully dancing around the whole reason I was having this conversation. Grian –still sat to my right- had put his left arm around me and used his right hand to rub my thigh, causing me to make a surprised noise.

Grian ignored it, "Mhm? Have any other feelings?" He asked, lowering his voice to become huskier. His hand went up higher on the inside of my thigh and he started to gently squeeze it.

"Yes... I do have another feeling." I said blankly. As if he knew it would work, Grian moved his face closer to my ear and waited for me to continue to speak. "It's really embarrassing to say..."