Rachaels Picks

Age 10

I climb in bed and bundle up in the covers

I close my eyes and pretend to sleep

Father downstairs yelling at mothers

I grab my teddy, my only friend

Screaming "Stop!" In my head

I climb out of bed & get dressed

I open the window

As i climb out i wonder where I'm going this time

I jump on top of the truck

As quite as a mouse

Yes, ive finally got away

From this dreaded house

I do this night after night

And stay out for awhile until they are asleep

Then i sneak back in

Lie in my bed, and quietly weep

AGE 14

A new year of school

Finally 8th grade 

A new resolution

No more pain

As i amble with the 4minute passing period

You pass by me

I can't help but stair

I smile but yours says just acquaintances

We talk some, we joke around

Everytime i can't help but laugh

I flirst, you flirt

But still you break my fragile heart

I change my looks

You still wont have me

My whole world

It's falling apart

AGE 16

I climb out the window

I run to my usual place

Except this time it's different

Someone is waiting for me

I lie down on top of the hill

Right next besides you

No longer my acquaintance

But my life, my love

As we talk about our lives

As we cuddle and giggle

I actually feel complete

Everytime im with you

No more teasing at school

No more beatings

No more emptiness inside

At least for this moment

I don't know what would happen

If i ever lost you

I would probably die

At least inside

AGE 20

As i finished the last of the accessories in my new house

I call you to see if you're ready to go

But those words they pierce my heart like needles

The words i never thought i would hear

I beg you and plead you not to

I had thought you loved me

All those years, a total waste

Artifical happiness

I throw the phone across the room

I collapse onto the floor

I weep and wish i would die

Then i realize wishing wont help 

I unwrap the brand new knives

And i run outside into the darkness

To the place I've always been

The hill

As i lie and look up at the sky

The stars twinkling like diamonds

I remember your face

And how everything used to be

The tears streaming down my ivory cheeks

I have nothing left for me

My parents are dead, my love is gone

Luckily i wont live to see the dawn

My life is gone, with nothing to live for

As she slices her wrists with the knife

The boy had realized his mistake

He barged in the house and saw the phone

He gasped with surprise

When he saw the one knife missing

He knew exactly where she went

He busted out the door and ran as fast as he could

But when he got to the hill it was too late 

Her wrists were sliced

As he sobbed he realized a note lying beside her

It read;

If you are my love, i hope you know you were everything to me

When you stabbed me with those words

I remember that night when we were 16

I told you id die without you, and i was serious

I loved you and i always will

I had nothing to live for and i was dead inside

I just wanted you to know you were the last thing on my mind

Before i died

Ill love you forever and I'll wait for u at the Golden Gates

 

With that he laid next to her

And kissed her lips one last time

He sliced his wrists and as his vision started to fade

He layed her over his chest with her ear over his heart

So people would know the last beat of his heart was for her