I climb in bed and bundle up in the covers
I close my eyes and pretend to sleep
Father downstairs yelling at mothers
I grab my teddy, my only friend
Screaming "Stop!" In my head
I climb out of bed & get dressed
I open the window
As i climb out i wonder where I'm going this time
I jump on top of the truck
As quite as a mouse
Yes, ive finally got away
From this dreaded house
I do this night after night
And stay out for awhile until they are asleep
Then i sneak back in
Lie in my bed, and quietly weep
AGE 14
A new year of school
Finally 8th grade
A new resolution
No more pain
As i amble with the 4minute passing period
You pass by me
I can't help but stair
I smile but yours says just acquaintances
We talk some, we joke around
Everytime i can't help but laugh
I flirst, you flirt
But still you break my fragile heart
I change my looks
You still wont have me
My whole world
It's falling apart
AGE 16
I climb out the window
I run to my usual place
Except this time it's different
Someone is waiting for me
I lie down on top of the hill
Right next besides you
No longer my acquaintance
But my life, my love
As we talk about our lives
As we cuddle and giggle
I actually feel complete
Everytime im with you
No more teasing at school
No more beatings
No more emptiness inside
At least for this moment
I don't know what would happen
If i ever lost you
I would probably die
At least inside
AGE 20
As i finished the last of the accessories in my new house
I call you to see if you're ready to go
But those words they pierce my heart like needles
The words i never thought i would hear
I beg you and plead you not to
I had thought you loved me
All those years, a total waste
Artifical happiness
I throw the phone across the room
I collapse onto the floor
I weep and wish i would die
Then i realize wishing wont help
I unwrap the brand new knives
And i run outside into the darkness
To the place I've always been
The hill
As i lie and look up at the sky
The stars twinkling like diamonds
I remember your face
And how everything used to be
The tears streaming down my ivory cheeks
I have nothing left for me
My parents are dead, my love is gone
Luckily i wont live to see the dawn
My life is gone, with nothing to live for
As she slices her wrists with the knife
The boy had realized his mistake
He barged in the house and saw the phone
He gasped with surprise
When he saw the one knife missing
He knew exactly where she went
He busted out the door and ran as fast as he could
But when he got to the hill it was too late
Her wrists were sliced
As he sobbed he realized a note lying beside her
It read;
If you are my love, i hope you know you were everything to me
When you stabbed me with those words
I remember that night when we were 16
I told you id die without you, and i was serious
I loved you and i always will
I had nothing to live for and i was dead inside
I just wanted you to know you were the last thing on my mind
Before i died
Ill love you forever and I'll wait for u at the Golden Gates
With that he laid next to her
And kissed her lips one last time
He sliced his wrists and as his vision started to fade
He layed her over his chest with her ear over his heart
So people would know the last beat of his heart was for her
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Rachaels Picks
Poesíaum a big book about my poems or poems by other writes that i love. so enjoy my poems have my intials R.E.C